Happy thanksgiving...eh
So I was all happy for thanksgiving cuz I thought that Robert was going to be coming, but it turns out that he did have plans already afterall. So now I'm pretty much depressed. It's okay though, I guess. I don't know how I feel about Robert anymore. Dangit, Justin, I wish I could be more like you and just be bold and go for things, but no. I'm pretty sure that if I had asked him a couple of weeks ago when I first had the suspiscion that he didn't have Thanksgiving plans yet, that he would have been able to come. Now, since I'm so fucking timid all the time, it's at that weird point where I have a lot of questions about him and how things are going between us, but I have no answers. It's really frustrating.
I need to call Blake and schedule lunch sometime next week. I think he likes me, but I dunno...I don't understand why he'd be interested in me, since I'm a bit younger and he's a grad student and all. There I go again - putting limitations on everything. Fuck.
I wish gay people weren't so bitchy. I can be bitchy, too, sometimes, but generally I'll talk and hang out with anyone. It's hard to start up conversations with guys though. This whole semester I've been really having a hard time even just talking to guys, straight or gay, friend or stranger. It's hard even just looking at guys, especially hot boys. I just feel really guilty for some reason. It's hard trying to make friends with popular people like my friend Chris Coccagna or Robert. Idk.
PS Robert has the cutest name: Robert Anthony Romano. OMG - SO CATHOLIC!!! and SO ITALIAN!!! and SO HOTT! Ach! I need to stop thinking about him. But he does want to go to mass together, which is cool. It gives me some hope at least. I just wish there was one gay guy besides Justin who I could talk to about shit and can relate. Sigh.
--Peace
I need to call Blake and schedule lunch sometime next week. I think he likes me, but I dunno...I don't understand why he'd be interested in me, since I'm a bit younger and he's a grad student and all. There I go again - putting limitations on everything. Fuck.
I wish gay people weren't so bitchy. I can be bitchy, too, sometimes, but generally I'll talk and hang out with anyone. It's hard to start up conversations with guys though. This whole semester I've been really having a hard time even just talking to guys, straight or gay, friend or stranger. It's hard even just looking at guys, especially hot boys. I just feel really guilty for some reason. It's hard trying to make friends with popular people like my friend Chris Coccagna or Robert. Idk.
PS Robert has the cutest name: Robert Anthony Romano. OMG - SO CATHOLIC!!! and SO ITALIAN!!! and SO HOTT! Ach! I need to stop thinking about him. But he does want to go to mass together, which is cool. It gives me some hope at least. I just wish there was one gay guy besides Justin who I could talk to about shit and can relate. Sigh.
--Peace