where i am.
so, you know, i consider myself a pretty spiritual person, believing in the tide of the universe..
the push and pull within us that moves us through life and helps us make the decisions we make
day in and day out...
i have always tried to be the best person i know how to be
and every day i learn more on that tip
because no one can be perfect
but we can always strive to be the best we can be, right?
so, when my mother was first diagnosed with cancer
i was young and extremely unaware of my own emotions.
i went to see a therapist maybe 3 times and she scared me away from therapy.
that was really too bad, because i've certainly had my fair share of traumatic bullshit in my life.
so, i went at it again with the intention of making the therapist do all the work for me
in 2004 and 2005. needless to say, i got absolutely nothing out of it.
more big changes and here i am in portland with a whole new crazy life and the most
amazing relationship of my life and took her suggestion to head back to work
on the walls i've put up all around myself to keep the world away...
this time around, i find myself more self-aware than i have ever been in my life
and enjoying life more because of it.
life is a challenging road and tools are necessary to learn to read the road signs.
i am grateful every day for all the bullshit of my past that has lead me to where i am today.
i believe that everything happens for a reason and that the challenges placed before me
are for me to learn and grow, not for me to stop and falter.
attitude is everything.