And the process begins
I've sent out my first applications to a few jobs. Five? Six? I don't know, I've lost track. I have a headache and my chest is full of anxiety.
I am TERRIFIED. TERRIFIED. That I won't find anything. I don't want a job just to have a job. I HAVE a job. But I've managed to pinpoint one of my biggest complaints--it's the isolation. I like interacting with people, new people, and I rarely have that opportunity behind the scenes. (And I'm FUCKING POOR, but whatever.)
The problem is that I'm not qualified for a-ny-thing. I've never held a desk job. I've never worked in an office environment. I feel as if my experiences of the past will translate well to just about any kind of environment--but I have to convince others of that. And I'm very, very aware of the stiffness of the competition.
I just need to calm. Down. I still have a job. I'm smart, I'm adaptable, and I'm confident (most of the time). I'll find something.
In the meantime... no more anxiety, plz? Nellie no likey. :-(
I am TERRIFIED. TERRIFIED. That I won't find anything. I don't want a job just to have a job. I HAVE a job. But I've managed to pinpoint one of my biggest complaints--it's the isolation. I like interacting with people, new people, and I rarely have that opportunity behind the scenes. (And I'm FUCKING POOR, but whatever.)
The problem is that I'm not qualified for a-ny-thing. I've never held a desk job. I've never worked in an office environment. I feel as if my experiences of the past will translate well to just about any kind of environment--but I have to convince others of that. And I'm very, very aware of the stiffness of the competition.
I just need to calm. Down. I still have a job. I'm smart, I'm adaptable, and I'm confident (most of the time). I'll find something.
In the meantime... no more anxiety, plz? Nellie no likey. :-(