NO!

[sharkbuff]

NO! I'm going to make this a sucky entry on purpose so you people stop telling me to update! I DON'T WANT TO AND MY LIFE IS BORING SO SHUT UP. My knees hurt like crap because they are connected to some muscle in my thigh that is weak so when I run I'm gonna fall over. I suck at running. I think I'm worse this year than the first year I started. I can barely run a mile without hurting. Gah. I hate it. I just don't feel good. Ugh and guys are stupid too. No matter how hard you try to impress them they see right through you and check out some tramp thats standing behind you that YOU CAN'T STAND! Grr.GAHH. GAHHHH! GRRR!!!! I guess somethings have been ok but I can't remember them. Yesterday was horrible. It was Shawns birthday and I miss him so much. Its been 276 days since I last saw him...thats 9 months and 6 days. I miss him so much. So I wore his jersey around for a while and then I made the mistake of smelling my jersey. It smelled like the cool ice. I miss hockey. I miss that feeling you get when you walk into the arena and its kind of like a blast of cool dry air and it smells so good. And not to mention I miss the guys in their spandex. My shoes came yesterday. They are cool I love them. But they reminded me of Shawn and Ole both of who wear Shox as well. I miss Shawn's hair. I miss Shawn's perfect flawless hair. It's so beautiful. I miss Shawn's eyes. They are so nice to look at. I miss Shawn's smile. It's so bright and it lights up everything. I miss his nose. He has a cute nose. -tear- I miss Karl. I miss his eyes they are so calming. I miss his voice its so sweet. I miss Karl he's the best all together. I miss Ole. I miss his hair he has pretty hair. I miss his eyes that are so mysterious looking you could gaze at them forever. I miss his nose even if its crooked a bit...alot. I miss his smile he has a big smile and I miss his laugh because he laughs funny where his tongue sticks out. I miss Trattnig. I miss his nice butt. I ain't never seen an Ass Like That. I miss Mark. I miss his smile. Its very nice. I miss talking to him. I didn't get to talk to him this year. So I miss him. I miss Greg even if he doesn't like me. I miss his hair because he shaved his head. I miss his smile because its so friendly. I miss his laugh because its so nice and calming and I miss talking to him because he told me about Shawn and that made me think about Shawn and his hair which is very pretty. And I miss Shawns voice its really low. I miss all my guys. They are all amazing and so nice to everyone. I feel like I know them alot more even if I don't talk to them because I see once or more a week in the winter. It sux I hate summer. I wish hockey was year round and then I would never miss the guys and I would never get bored of hockey and then Loser and I wouldn't cry online about how much we miss the guys. I don't even know if I'll see them again. Especially Shawn and Karl. -cry- it all sux I hate it. I wish it was October and everything was perfect again.
**A sad sad sad lonely lonely lonely Shawnless girl.