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you know, ive been thinking about this a lot. i dont think people my age are really meant for marriage. i dont know of one marriage or engagement that has worked out with people my age. a few engagements have broken, including my own. and marriages have plumbeted into a horrible abbys of broken dreams and hopes. and why do these relationships end? a whole bunch of reasons. entering a engagement before both are ready, wanting to get married, people changing, blind love, being too young, not mature enough, and of course the typical- bitchy mean controlling mothers (yes, it has happened to other people, too).
so what do we do in response to all of this? become bitter, commitaphobes who are too afraid to ever trust again or let someone love them. and throughout all of this, im not cynical. honestly not. someday i want to get married. yes, i do. but trust me- not for a frickin long time. this past engagement cost my dad so much money. and the ass wasnt mature enough to pay my dad back any of the money. so, i also want to make sure that things are financially ready. even tho i can tell you, i sure dont want a big wedding. no way.
relationships of any kind take work. and when one of the people just dont want to work it out (or are completely controlled and brain washed), then its almost for the best that the relationship burns and crashes instead of lasting a long time, years and years, and then things would get worse.
oiy. honestly, im not cynical. just worried about everyone who is or has gone thru this horrid stuff.
so what do we do in response to all of this? become bitter, commitaphobes who are too afraid to ever trust again or let someone love them. and throughout all of this, im not cynical. honestly not. someday i want to get married. yes, i do. but trust me- not for a frickin long time. this past engagement cost my dad so much money. and the ass wasnt mature enough to pay my dad back any of the money. so, i also want to make sure that things are financially ready. even tho i can tell you, i sure dont want a big wedding. no way.
relationships of any kind take work. and when one of the people just dont want to work it out (or are completely controlled and brain washed), then its almost for the best that the relationship burns and crashes instead of lasting a long time, years and years, and then things would get worse.
oiy. honestly, im not cynical. just worried about everyone who is or has gone thru this horrid stuff.