snooze.
i listened to my san francisco playlist all throughout manhattan today, as i roamed the streets alone. the music didn't make me feel particularly good. it didn't make me feel bad either. i was just reminded of how content i was in san francisco. i was in a much better place in my life then. and then i thought to myself, i wonder how i could have let all my dreams slip down the drain.
today i:
- took the metro north to grand central, then the downtown 6 to soho.
- roamed around practically every street in soho from 11:00 a.m. to approx. 6:15 p.m. yeah wtf my feet hurt man.
- had a giant spider land on my shoulder in a store. fuck. that. shit.
- bought a pair of grecian-style sandals. for half off of what i would have paid if the other store i went to had my size on sunday! three dresses. two shirts. a necklace. and more.
- almost got a pair of ernest sewn jeans. but i wasn't insane enough.
- had new york pizza. and a pepsi. and thought about sex and the city.
- melted in the 105 degree weather.
- craved french onion soup and felt like seeing 5th ave. so took the subway there, found a place called "gary's diner" or something. the waiter was super adorable and sweet, so i tipped him a lot, esp. since some psycho guy was being difficult to him.
- never got to 5th ave. because i got tired of walking.
- got back on the subway to grand central, took the metro north back home.
- got in a fight with my mom on the phone. cried. she yelled. i held the phone away from my ear and didn't listen. uncle came in to my room and took the phone from me, then went to talk to her and calm her down. thinking about it now is still tugging at my heart strings and i feel my eyes watering again.
- got frustrated with everything.
- started really wanting to cut everything bad out of my life.
tomorrow's plan:
- check out hendri bendel.
- visit the met!
- come home early, bbq with family.
i am really dreading going home. too much shit to stress about waiting for me back there...
today i:
- took the metro north to grand central, then the downtown 6 to soho.
- roamed around practically every street in soho from 11:00 a.m. to approx. 6:15 p.m. yeah wtf my feet hurt man.
- had a giant spider land on my shoulder in a store. fuck. that. shit.
- bought a pair of grecian-style sandals. for half off of what i would have paid if the other store i went to had my size on sunday! three dresses. two shirts. a necklace. and more.
- almost got a pair of ernest sewn jeans. but i wasn't insane enough.
- had new york pizza. and a pepsi. and thought about sex and the city.
- melted in the 105 degree weather.
- craved french onion soup and felt like seeing 5th ave. so took the subway there, found a place called "gary's diner" or something. the waiter was super adorable and sweet, so i tipped him a lot, esp. since some psycho guy was being difficult to him.
- never got to 5th ave. because i got tired of walking.
- got back on the subway to grand central, took the metro north back home.
- got in a fight with my mom on the phone. cried. she yelled. i held the phone away from my ear and didn't listen. uncle came in to my room and took the phone from me, then went to talk to her and calm her down. thinking about it now is still tugging at my heart strings and i feel my eyes watering again.
- got frustrated with everything.
- started really wanting to cut everything bad out of my life.
tomorrow's plan:
- check out hendri bendel.
- visit the met!
- come home early, bbq with family.
i am really dreading going home. too much shit to stress about waiting for me back there...