Sustain
One of my colleagues left for her maternity leave yesterday. It's 4 months of me taking over her job as a web administrator. Everyone says, though, that "it's just four months". "It'll be over quick," is the consensus, "nothing in the grand scheme of things."
In the grand scheme that's been 2015, there have been ups and downs and lefts and rights and people who go missing and people who stay close. I've grown less concerned with the minutate of life. Instead, I just do things. Or in the case of writing, don't do them.
There are so many things I want to say. But I know that not all of them will be relevant. There are deliberate decisions I've made that have small rippling effects, like how I chose to purposely stay silent on LJ while I sort out the major things in life. There are moments when I'm perfectly happy and these morph into the realisation that happiness has to be sustained.
In the grand scheme of things, 4 months is nothing. In the grand scheme of things, God is in charge - even though on the ground I act like everything doesn't require supreme control.
Without thinking too much of the grand scheme of things, at least now I'm content with life.
In the grand scheme that's been 2015, there have been ups and downs and lefts and rights and people who go missing and people who stay close. I've grown less concerned with the minutate of life. Instead, I just do things. Or in the case of writing, don't do them.
There are so many things I want to say. But I know that not all of them will be relevant. There are deliberate decisions I've made that have small rippling effects, like how I chose to purposely stay silent on LJ while I sort out the major things in life. There are moments when I'm perfectly happy and these morph into the realisation that happiness has to be sustained.
In the grand scheme of things, 4 months is nothing. In the grand scheme of things, God is in charge - even though on the ground I act like everything doesn't require supreme control.
Without thinking too much of the grand scheme of things, at least now I'm content with life.