"You will be stronger if you learn to stand on your own," is all he said.
I'm not always the best person, to myself or others, I'll give everyone that. But ya know, there's something I need to do that I've been thinking about more and more lately and for awhile. Just don't know how to do it.
Devote to my craft.
I saw The Prestige last night? I guess? Some night a few ago, but I saw it and it really hit me that I have the obsession but no drive. How many doodles of Haikuman are everhwere? Paralells to classic novels? Batman quotes ending up in subject lines?
But basically I've realized that I have the wrong thing as the most important in my life. I have people too high. People, to be frank, suck. You aren't compatable and you have history and you destroy the future because you can't let go. Or at least, I do. You don't go to bed because you don't know where you're going.
But see, the thing is, when I'm upset or sad or whatever you wanna call it, I go to one of two things. Zombies, or Batman. Lately I've been re-reading Year One and The Long Halloween, 'cause they're very "Batman is a loner." Which is what the new book tells it's about in the introduction, whichmakes me laugh. (New book being Dark Victory by Loeb, my fave non-Miller Batman writer.)
Anyway, the point of this was that I need to focus on comics. When I was writing DotD last night I was in heaven until I concerned myself with something else and got myself upset. When [she] left for NY and I was stuck alone in PA, I started DotD and plotted all of it, which is why I guess it's so personal to me. In order to make myself feel more at home when I got to PA, I went back to work on Haikuman as soon as my computer got back in working order. I didn't know where Jenn and I stood and didn't really have [her] in my life, so I plotted Space Monkey Mafia. I needed to know where I stood with God so I plotted A New Age. (How well that worked out, too, hello DotD).
As much as I love them, people can't fix or help me. Comics can. And it's always nice to write about how Erica throws a ball in the air and explodes it into copious balls of fire that erupt in the room, right? (DotD) DotD gets out a lot of aggression, because it's all about backstabbing and betrayal. Think that's why I liked The Prestigue, that's all it was. And that's what Batman is, really.
I need to write an ending where the character doesn't end up alone. Susan leaves Haikuman [in the movie], Teller kills Engel, Erica kills everyone, Lovelock destroys his race..... Yeah, I need a happy ending.
Well, I plan to have the humans win the zombie epic.
Unless it's better with a zombie world.
Devote to my craft.
I saw The Prestige last night? I guess? Some night a few ago, but I saw it and it really hit me that I have the obsession but no drive. How many doodles of Haikuman are everhwere? Paralells to classic novels? Batman quotes ending up in subject lines?
But basically I've realized that I have the wrong thing as the most important in my life. I have people too high. People, to be frank, suck. You aren't compatable and you have history and you destroy the future because you can't let go. Or at least, I do. You don't go to bed because you don't know where you're going.
But see, the thing is, when I'm upset or sad or whatever you wanna call it, I go to one of two things. Zombies, or Batman. Lately I've been re-reading Year One and The Long Halloween, 'cause they're very "Batman is a loner." Which is what the new book tells it's about in the introduction, whichmakes me laugh. (New book being Dark Victory by Loeb, my fave non-Miller Batman writer.)
Anyway, the point of this was that I need to focus on comics. When I was writing DotD last night I was in heaven until I concerned myself with something else and got myself upset. When [she] left for NY and I was stuck alone in PA, I started DotD and plotted all of it, which is why I guess it's so personal to me. In order to make myself feel more at home when I got to PA, I went back to work on Haikuman as soon as my computer got back in working order. I didn't know where Jenn and I stood and didn't really have [her] in my life, so I plotted Space Monkey Mafia. I needed to know where I stood with God so I plotted A New Age. (How well that worked out, too, hello DotD).
As much as I love them, people can't fix or help me. Comics can. And it's always nice to write about how Erica throws a ball in the air and explodes it into copious balls of fire that erupt in the room, right? (DotD) DotD gets out a lot of aggression, because it's all about backstabbing and betrayal. Think that's why I liked The Prestigue, that's all it was. And that's what Batman is, really.
I need to write an ending where the character doesn't end up alone. Susan leaves Haikuman [in the movie], Teller kills Engel, Erica kills everyone, Lovelock destroys his race..... Yeah, I need a happy ending.
Well, I plan to have the humans win the zombie epic.
Unless it's better with a zombie world.