take my dreams dangle them above me watch me reach and fall

[shardsofheart18]

hello everyone noone who reads this anymore it's brian shardof glass yip it's me i wanna put everything in here i mean my whole life at the moment so i can drown you in misery but i don't wanna do that and theres not enough rooom well here's to another effed up entry god rock bottom really doesn't seem that bad looking up from here eh so im like terrified of going back to school i mean like whoa i don't wanna go back to the kids i called my friends last year i don't wanna go over and see tim and randy being the centers of attention i don't wanna be the little emo quite kid that noone wants anything to do with im contemplating if i should get drunk right now i mean what do i got to lose besides my life i mean lol thats funny im a lifeless bastard i don't have a life besides sleeping eating drinking computer bass and guitar. eh whatever im just a pathetic excuse for a human yip yop thats me but anyway god what i need right now is to be held and loved and wanted and apprechiated eh im so narsassisstic lol anyway yeah i need to have a band practice i need to call... yeah i need a life i need to stop being my ownm worest enemy and a loser and i need to stand the eff up and be heard be happy but i dunno how and im to weak to do so im shattered and there isn't anyone willing to pick up every broken piece of me and put the shards back in place and recreate me and hold me there there isn't a reason for my life there isn't i know im emo and shiznatz but i need a reason.... i need something to stitched my worn heart of frail cloth but i'll sit and wait for nothing anyway i really wana work at this band thing i wanna try to write more practice more just really work my ass off i'd give anything to be happy or to have a reason to be **sigh** someday it's always that god i h8 seeing happy couples and knowing im so alone i h8 being nothing i wanna feel love eh well besides that i just so wanna go back to school so i can see all the same kids in classes that totally dispise of fuckers hehe owell and my faggot teacher the one that freaks me out a bunch of other stupid ones eh screw it i'll make new friends i still have ammmmbbbbbbuuuuuuuurrrr and and saaaarrrrrrrrrahhhhhh hehe you guys rock and john but john likes to swallow and if i make a comment about him like that he might think im hitting on him and then i'd freak out and hide in my closest with my moo cow jjj//kkkkkk lol im so mean well im sure theres others just less important cause i don't really talk to them much and they never wanna hang out and there gey and and i dunno there just stupid foreskin irritations haha meowwwww anyway yeah someone made me feel alil better but im still effed up well mr loose man vagina is out l8erzz

your friend not sure if bestest but friend,
Xbrian SHARDOF glassx