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So my stress level has not gone down. I mean it helped to update and get everything out of my system and I don't think I've ranted about it half so much since. What has me still so stressed? My dad is home and all, but my mom basically doesn't do much unless I'm not here. All day yesterday I did everything he needed done. Mom sat in the chair from the time she got home to the time she went to bed. She cooked a pizza and wiped somehting out but she did almost nothing for dad. She left me to do it all. I don't mind helping my parents out but I feel like they're taking advantage of me sometimes. Bryan gets money from them all the time to pay his bills, and so what am I doing? I'm buying the shit they need for them. I know this shouldn't bother me but it kinda does. Why am I the one left with this burden? Is it really my job to support everyone? AM I the one who is gonna be left caring for my family? I work my ass off on some pretty long days in order to make money to get ahead so I can go back to school full time...and I wind up spending most of it on my family because they need this or that and don't have quite enough money just now and can't I just run this errand for them? I've decided I'm not going to pay the cell phone bill. Its probably selfish but seriously, when am I allowed money for myself? I buy them whatever they need all the time. I buy food, I buy toiletries, I buy movies, when am I gonna be able to just relax and save some moeny for my goals? It just hit me wrong the last two days when they have me jumping at their every beck and call and spending my money on them when I have things I need to pay for for myself. Not to mention the fact that I'm tired too and yet I'm the one waiting on the both of them. grrrr.