Cursed? Maybe.

[shards8585]

Okay, I am messed up. I know everyone is. It happens....its called life. Anyway. I had this dream a while back that got me thinking.....probably too much cuz when I think I tend to think too much. Let me start out by explaining that I met someone at work and we have become friends. We don't talk often per say but we talk and we have started hanging out a little. He has the awesomest car in the world and I have always wanted one. Which is often a topic of flirtation because I want to steal his car. Its a mistubishi Eclipse. I LOVE the look of those cars. Anyway, I keep getting sidetracked. So we occasionally flirt a little. Not much since my flirting skills took a huge nose dive last year and I have been afraid of it ever since. But He told me a while back that he has this thing for my friend. I think its great that he likes her but I know that he isn't her type and she doesn't like him like that. I hid that fact from him eventhough I wanted to tell him right away. In anycase I hung out with all of them lastnight and we talked a lot. Every once in awhile I get the impression that maybe theres something between us. As in, maybe he likes me. Or maybe its just me being me andI should bring my ego down a couple notches. I don't know. I got a little drunk lastnight and a mutual friend told me that I should text him and let him know that our friend doesn't like him THAT way because I think he is an okay guy and to be honest I think that I have a bit of a thing for him. But I feel bad about him trying to go for her when she really doesn't like him like that. So I was told to let him know that. Well I couldn't just text him cuz that seemed cowardly so my drunkenness gave me the balls to just come out and say it to his face that she didn't feel the same about him. I feel miserable about this now and I'm sure in my sober state I would never have told him no matter how bad I felt for him not knowing what everyone else did. Well the reason I began to think I had feelings for him was in part due to a dream. Or at least the dream forced me to admit these feelings for him. Not to him! but to myself and a very few others and finally here. He and I were walking around walmart....natural since we both work in the walmart, he in the deli and me at the Papa Murphy's pizza in the supercenter. And we were talking about being single and how it wasn't bad and was pretty nice except I mentioned missing making out with someone at times cuz lets face it. Everyone when they are single miss making out and cuddling. Some miss sex too but I'm not really one of those. He agreed to missing making out......we then start making out. Now since I had this dream we have hung out more and even touched a little. As in he put his arms around me once so I could see what he was texting to my friend on my phone. But usually we both seem a little shy of actual physical contact in almost any way. Again excepting that the arms thing was lastnight and tonight he kinda pulled me into him so I was leaning against him. Now this dream had me confused and a little wierded out right from the start. Mostly cuz I couldn't shake it and I wanted to know what the hell it meant. So after trying to figure myself out tonight I decided to look up interpretations of it on the internet. Google is as always amazing. So what follows are the interpretations that I found on various sites.

Kissing
 Affection. Joy. Coming success. Wish to be close to someone.
Flirtation
 Affection of love. Intimacy. Suitable time to pursue a courtship.Friend Joy and consolation. Aspect of self ready for integration.Your Dream: walking around with a friend talking about being single and missing kissing. We then start to kiss.

Words like walking: Freedom. Movement. Ask yourself where do you want to go.

Words like friend: Joy and consolation. Aspect of self ready for integration.

Words like talking: Conversation. Communication. Seeking for a way to express something.

Words like kissing: Affection. Joy. Coming success. Wish to be close to someone.

Now I want to know your interpretation. I'm in need of some advice here. I am pretty sure he still likes my friend but I sometimes get the feeling that there is a little someting between us as well. I don't think I want a full on relationship yet, I mgiht be ready for one but am unsure and so I tend to waver between wanting one and wanting just a make out or cudde buddy. Sounds bad, I know. But sometimes thats all I want. Keep in mind that I have been single for 7 months now. Thats pretty much a record for me. I have never been single quite this long. I've come close but not quite. So any advice? should I tell him how I feel? should I pursue him? should I just shrug the whole thing off? What are your interpretations of my dream? Any help you could offer would be great. I need lots of opinions. PLEASE!