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I can't post this in my other journal so I'm posting it here. If I post it in my other one, there is a chance that the person I'm referring to will read it...and so to avoid any akward conversations I will post it here and hope for some advice or at least a resolution coming soon.
As I said in an earlier post I met a friend. The truth of hte matter is that I met several recently. A good number of them on rpol who I've been talking to on AIM pretty regularly. But this person I met somewhere else. And we talk on msn. The problem I'm having is probably a thing of my own creation. I know this and yet I can't help worrying over it. Ya see, this person and I get a long really really well. We have a lot in common and this makes it really fun to talk. We have admittedly been reserved with one another because we met online in some rather unusual circumstances. But that aside we seem to mutually care for each other and mutually enjoy each others company. I'll add an aside here that its really nice to be able to have anyone to talk to...my life has been extreamly lonely and to have someone like this as a friend...well its just plain comforting. However, I recently read something that leads me to feel unsure. It was something written just before we met or around the same time. But it was about being nice to someone else and caring for them. I'm not going to go into great detail or anything but to sum up, it just made me feel like maybe this person was just a nice person and some of the things we said to each other might not be completly genuine on their part. I don't know what to think about it. I know that most of you would say "ask them about it. confront them." and this might solve things or it might just lose me this newfound friend, which to be honest would hurt....alot...anyway. Its had me upset for a couple days.
On top of that I had a fight with my best friend. We're better now but all this happened lastnight. I had a very bad night lastnight. It sucked. Tonight has been a bit better. But I don't think I want to talk to this other firend of mine. I'm afraid of what might happen. and I'm cold. My mother keeps turning down the damn heat cuz shes "too hot" all the time! I'm an ice cube bundled in sweatpants, slippers, sweatshirt, and a thick blanket. :-( oh well. night all.
As I said in an earlier post I met a friend. The truth of hte matter is that I met several recently. A good number of them on rpol who I've been talking to on AIM pretty regularly. But this person I met somewhere else. And we talk on msn. The problem I'm having is probably a thing of my own creation. I know this and yet I can't help worrying over it. Ya see, this person and I get a long really really well. We have a lot in common and this makes it really fun to talk. We have admittedly been reserved with one another because we met online in some rather unusual circumstances. But that aside we seem to mutually care for each other and mutually enjoy each others company. I'll add an aside here that its really nice to be able to have anyone to talk to...my life has been extreamly lonely and to have someone like this as a friend...well its just plain comforting. However, I recently read something that leads me to feel unsure. It was something written just before we met or around the same time. But it was about being nice to someone else and caring for them. I'm not going to go into great detail or anything but to sum up, it just made me feel like maybe this person was just a nice person and some of the things we said to each other might not be completly genuine on their part. I don't know what to think about it. I know that most of you would say "ask them about it. confront them." and this might solve things or it might just lose me this newfound friend, which to be honest would hurt....alot...anyway. Its had me upset for a couple days.
On top of that I had a fight with my best friend. We're better now but all this happened lastnight. I had a very bad night lastnight. It sucked. Tonight has been a bit better. But I don't think I want to talk to this other firend of mine. I'm afraid of what might happen. and I'm cold. My mother keeps turning down the damn heat cuz shes "too hot" all the time! I'm an ice cube bundled in sweatpants, slippers, sweatshirt, and a thick blanket. :-( oh well. night all.