Jul 16, 2015 23:35
I write these for you. No one knows how much time they have on this planet and I want you to have something that lives beyond me one day - my words. They may not make perfect sense, but they are mine and mine alone.
Hopefully these blog posts will help shed light on who your father is at different times of his life. Deep down, I haven't changed much. Your mother made me settle down. I'm still immature on the inside though, even at 42, but I can hide it welll when necessary. I lean a little to the left, but I'm pretty moderate. When I was younger I was an idealistic socialist. Then I got a job.
Many things have shaped my life and made me who I am and Im not sure all the blog posts in the world can truly explain who I am or what I've done, where I've been, but it's fun to recollect. Heck, one day I may have to read these stories in order to remember them. I think about stuff like that - memory recollection. Do our memories disappear or fade? Then why do we suddenly recall them when provided a icture or someone else tells us a story to help us remember them?
My favorite thing in the world is you. I don't need to write that down to let you know, but it doesn't hurt. I'm so excited now that you are about to walk and talk. The sky is the limit. I love reading to you. I can't wait until you ask me to read your favorite bed time story We're going to have fun.
Another reason I write is because I'm overweight and I have a history of heart disease on my father's side of the family. You'll have to watch out as well. I want to make sure that I can tell you as many fascinating things as possible because I'm an older father and suddenly I know that I'm mortal. I'm not sure what my legacy will be to you yet. I just want to be there with you as you grow up and love you - hold your hand when you want me to, teach you how to swim, recommend a good scifi book or what to say to a pretty girl. On the pretty girl thing - compliments are ok, but the whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing is a game. I didn't play it well when I was in my teens. I did better once I was in my mid-twenties. Neil Strauss published a book called "The Game" and it's about how to successfully pick up women. I HIGHLY recommend it. It will take your game from a D to a B+. But the key to all of that is to be confident!
OK, enough about that stuff. This is just one of those silly posts where I'm upstairs whiel you are asleep downstairs and I'm thinking about what a lucky guy I am to have a son like you.
Love,
Dad