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You know I never really said it. I was too messed up, and I didn't want to explain it because then, that makes everything a lot more real. I just kept trying to comment on the nicer parts. ..Mostly. I kind of jumped in my journal from having problems with Jon, to suddenly talking to someone "new". Who isn't new at all, I've known (and liked) him for years. I found out that Jon was still lying about a lot of important things. So much so that it made everything false for all intents and purposes. There was no real point in sticking around after that. Turned my world topsy turvy for a good while. Alan threw me a lifeline and I clung like a drowning cat in a bathtub of wet angry poodles. It's not an understatement to comment that I owe him my sanity. He kept me from completely folding in and giving up. Last year was full of general everything seems to go wrongness. I lost a lot of people who were important to me in a lot of different ways. Nothing on the job front really panned out the way I wanted it to. (In a very big way). And I was just kind of bumfuzzlefucked about a lot of different situations.
As of now? If I was completely honest I'd say I'm still a little dazed and shellshocked. Still kind of spinning around in the poodle infested waters. I don't feel so brutally alone through it though. And I'm trying to improve myself. While I'm talking to Alan I'm actually happy. :) Not really spinning those moments at all. The rest..well we'll see.
Today is good. Saturday I'm dragging my roomate Ashley to Kings Island, because I've decided we both need to get out and blow off a lot of steam and just have fun. I found a site to order tickets and save 10 dollars, does anyone know of any better discounts? Also, if you're in the Lexington area and love rollercoasters, I don't mind if you'd like to come along as long as we still have room in the car! As of now there's only two of us :) Maybe one of you need a day away too.
As of now? If I was completely honest I'd say I'm still a little dazed and shellshocked. Still kind of spinning around in the poodle infested waters. I don't feel so brutally alone through it though. And I'm trying to improve myself. While I'm talking to Alan I'm actually happy. :) Not really spinning those moments at all. The rest..well we'll see.
Today is good. Saturday I'm dragging my roomate Ashley to Kings Island, because I've decided we both need to get out and blow off a lot of steam and just have fun. I found a site to order tickets and save 10 dollars, does anyone know of any better discounts? Also, if you're in the Lexington area and love rollercoasters, I don't mind if you'd like to come along as long as we still have room in the car! As of now there's only two of us :) Maybe one of you need a day away too.