Dec 03, 2006 04:20
Connor went with Faith to Cleveland instead of coming with Cordy and I to find out about how to get his memories back.
That had been an obvious sign of distrust or distaste on his part. I didn't know which, but it didn't sit well considering that I already had guilt about the Reilly's being killed.
Cordelia's vision led us to Wolfram and Hart. The answers were obviously there. They were the ones that agreed to do the spell, providing that me and my team took over the firm, so naturally, they would have a document of the expenditure that they paid whatever warlock to do the spell in accordance with my agreement.
Of course, the murderer hired by the First to kill the slayers, everyone, my team, myself, Spike, Riley and his unit, had succeeded and had killed Fred, Lorne, Gunn and Wesley right in the front lobby of Wolfram and Hart when we were going to take over the reigns as the leaders of the evil firm.
Obviously, pulling up in front of the building, I had trepidation over walking past the murder spot of only two days ago to my best friends, and I didn't expect a welcoming committee. They had made a deal with me over Connor and us taking over the firm. That plan was null and void now, but not in their respective evil eyes.
Cordy took care of everything, though, as we sat in the stolen car on the street in front of Wolfram and Hart. She took care of my guilt over Connor...and my guilt over the deaths of the rest of our friends, by massaging me where I generally, okay, always got a major rise when massaged there, and by kissing me, and telling me that we had experienced a lot of grief, but we had each other and that Connor was safe and we would find how to get his memories back and from this point forward, we would be happy. It worked and I was ready to go in, not that I wasn't before, but now I felt good about life, or a little better.
Cordy took care of getting us into the file room of expenditures by glowing on everyone. I had seen the glow before and it made everyone tame and allowed us easy access to the room. But, I had seen the glow before and last time, it made Spike and I...Spike and I, agree on everything when Buffy and Connor were in danger and neither of us even were remotely worried. That time, it made me tame. Now, when we had stacks of files in dozens of files cabintes with no idea where to look and earlier in the car, she had been giving me a handjob and kissing me, it made me feel other emotions, especially since there were so many files and we could be here all night.
I ripped my shirt off and started going for my pants and even though she was immune to her own glow, she started to undress as well. We were going to be here for a while and Connor needed the spell reversed, sure, but hey, the glow made me feel this way, and I wasn't complaining her. I needed her and I knew about Connor, but I couldn't keep my hands off of her. Her just in a bra now, I slammed her up against the wall, pinning her arms back, my mouth meeting hers.
[Cordy]