Now
Haven't posted in here in forever...things change...TED and I were together for about 4 months when he decided it was too hard to be with me so we broke up...and I made a command decision of my own..I am moving to portland the first week of september.
I am so EXCITED. i have spent my life being a daughter, surrogate mother, sister, wife, girlfriend, lover, friend, freak and junkie...now I am taking myself away from those people that demand so much from me with nothing in return and I am going to go be Shannon...I never really lost me per say as much as I put myself on the back burner for all of those people who "Needed" me to be one way or do one thing. I defined myself at least in part by the role I filled. I always wanted to go somewhere and start over just being me and portland was always where I wanted to go. I always found some reason or someone to keep me here...I ran out of reasons. I don't want to be 40 and stuck in this valley thinking I should have done something to make my life memorable..something not illegal or immoral;P
Yeah so I am ready.
I cant wait!!
I am so EXCITED. i have spent my life being a daughter, surrogate mother, sister, wife, girlfriend, lover, friend, freak and junkie...now I am taking myself away from those people that demand so much from me with nothing in return and I am going to go be Shannon...I never really lost me per say as much as I put myself on the back burner for all of those people who "Needed" me to be one way or do one thing. I defined myself at least in part by the role I filled. I always wanted to go somewhere and start over just being me and portland was always where I wanted to go. I always found some reason or someone to keep me here...I ran out of reasons. I don't want to be 40 and stuck in this valley thinking I should have done something to make my life memorable..something not illegal or immoral;P
Yeah so I am ready.
I cant wait!!