i feel alone in this world
so my roommates BF came up this weekend for the third time this week to stay with us. he was here every day this week and then he would go home for a change of clothes, to get a friend, or to buy cigarettes. Now i know this kid is a druggie, he is addicted to weed, and has tried every drug on the market but my roommate is so dumb that she won't leave him and now more than anytime cause she is carring his baby...errr. Anyways i have never had a problem with this kid, just that i don't like him for the ways he treats sarah (my roommate) (his name is Jim) and i don't like him being around ALL the time, i need my privacy and i need to feel he doesn't live with us. ANYWAYS so last night i wanted to ask sarah something and she and jim were in her room, the door was wide open, but they were silent and i was wondering what was going on, oh and about ten minutes earlier i said our room smelled which i assumed was from this kids clothes. So when i called for sarah she came out of her room with a "i'm doing something i shouldn't" face on. I thought that maybe her and jim were making out or something. i talked to sarah and then followed her towards her room. when i stepped inside her FUCKING boyfriend was sitting on her bed, separating his stash of weed!!!!!!!!!!!! That fucker! I was in shock and turned and went in my room, anger built up and i knew i had to get out of our room. now if you know this or not, if a person is caught with weed by the police everyone in the room/house is responsible and will be arrested. This boy was putting me at RISK! IN MY OWN HOUSE! i was f-ing pissed. so i grabbed my phone and went to leave the room. on my way out i said aloudly "jim you better get that shit outta here". and left for anywhere but there. I tried calling all my friends in the dorm for someplace to hang out, but it being a saturday night, no one was home. so i chilled in the basement...angry
now don't get me wrong, i have seen weed before, my roommate made me smell it so i know what it smells like just in case i was in a room with it so i knew to scram. i have been at parties where they were smoking up stairs....never again will i do that. but the fact that this kid has the guts to bring drugs into my house and display it so casually, and i don't care who you know, just shows that he doesn't respect his presence in my place.
but now i sit here thinking how about how i'm going to yell at my roommate...and i mean yell cause i want her to know this isn't taken lightly! but another thing i am thinking about is society's acceptance to the fact that this illegal drug is out there and that it is ok and should not cause anger on my part....cause everyone has done it. i was thinking about all my friends here and at home and i realized that 99% of my friends here have at least tried pot once in their young lives. when i think about my close friends at home, all of them, as far as i know, have not tried pot and would have the exact same reaction to this situation as me (Thank you!). I'm almost afraid to tell my friends here cause they, if put in my situation would brush it off, because if they were truely honest with themselves they would see that they see pot as no big deal, when it should be, its f-ing illegal! Thats one of the things Jim did here, tried to explain how weed should not be illegal and sarah tried to make excuses for him and why he NEEDS to smoke. I'm sick of it. I wanna scream at the top of my lungs that this is not cool, NOT OK, NOT NORMAL, and that the world is f-ed up to think it is.
Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now i'm angry
now don't get me wrong, i have seen weed before, my roommate made me smell it so i know what it smells like just in case i was in a room with it so i knew to scram. i have been at parties where they were smoking up stairs....never again will i do that. but the fact that this kid has the guts to bring drugs into my house and display it so casually, and i don't care who you know, just shows that he doesn't respect his presence in my place.
but now i sit here thinking how about how i'm going to yell at my roommate...and i mean yell cause i want her to know this isn't taken lightly! but another thing i am thinking about is society's acceptance to the fact that this illegal drug is out there and that it is ok and should not cause anger on my part....cause everyone has done it. i was thinking about all my friends here and at home and i realized that 99% of my friends here have at least tried pot once in their young lives. when i think about my close friends at home, all of them, as far as i know, have not tried pot and would have the exact same reaction to this situation as me (Thank you!). I'm almost afraid to tell my friends here cause they, if put in my situation would brush it off, because if they were truely honest with themselves they would see that they see pot as no big deal, when it should be, its f-ing illegal! Thats one of the things Jim did here, tried to explain how weed should not be illegal and sarah tried to make excuses for him and why he NEEDS to smoke. I'm sick of it. I wanna scream at the top of my lungs that this is not cool, NOT OK, NOT NORMAL, and that the world is f-ed up to think it is.
Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now i'm angry