Ten-Day Meme.
It's all karnerblue's fault :-P
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now (anonymously of course ;)
1. I miss you every day, and I hope someday we can see each other again and put the water under the bridge once and for all. I also hope someday your husband and I can do the same, but as long as you and I can stay friends, I'll be alright in the end if he never does.
2. I wish you were nicer to me and reached out more, but I know that might never happen, and I love you very much just the same. Always will.
3. The (emotional) distance between us that has turned into a chasm this year is palpable and cold, but I have hope that might change someday. In the meantime, you're still someone I consider one of the best friends I've ever had, and that is something that will absolutely never change, no matter the distance between us now.
4. I wish you would stop judging me based on what you think is best, but I know it comes from a place of caring and love and I can't fault you for that.
5. Not everything you said is true about me, and not everything you were told about me is, but there is no way I will ever convince you otherwise, even though it means I was thrown under the bus. It is what it is, and that doesn't change the fact that you will always have my friendship & loyalty because I have always respected and admired the hell out of you, even when you've cut me to the core (sometimes unjustly, sometimes not).
6. I'm so glad things worked out for the better for both of us, and no matter that others can't understand why we stay friends in spite of all the really REALLY bad shit that went down between us, I'm honestly very grateful we did. Here's to a better path towards better things and healing.
7. You truly are a dream come true and I'm almost scared of how compatible we are. You are kind, warm, chivelours, thoughful, and sweet, and I love you more and more each day. I hope we work out!
8.I love you to death, you are one of my dearest friends, but I think some of the things that led to where you are right now were due to personal selfishness and I don't know if you'll ever understand that. Doesn't mean I don't love and support you anyway.
9. I was very nearly in love with you at one time, and you waffle so much between seeming to care about me as a friend and then seeming to almost hate me that I don't know what to do anymore. How you have sometimes treated me has hurt me tremendously and I should just not give a shit, but that will never happen, and I know it. I wish you could see that.
10.I should have been a better friend to you and I let you down. I know that, and I'll eventually figure out how to do it the next time around, but that can't fix my neglect, and I will always kick myself for that.