i need a vacation from my life
all day i've been on the brink of bursting into tears. obviously, my emotions are severely imbalanced at the moment. there's a lot going on in my own personal life, and there's so much sh*t going on around me with family and friends that i cant seem to find a moment of clarity.
i want to push everyone away and just be me and do nothing and talk to no one for a while, but at the same time i want someone there. i need a hug, thats all. just a hug.
my grandmother asked me to move back home. i told her that depending on what i could do with school, i'd think about it. i cant move back, but i'm having trouble saying no. my life is here. i need to finish school. i'll never get done if i keep uprooting once a year and moving half way across the country. but on the other hand..... she does need me. it would benefit her more than me if i were there. argh! what should i do?
and then there's my car...... the good news is that it's being fixed. bad news.... it most likely wont be done by the time i have to relinquish the rental which means that i could be without transportation until it's fixed or pay for it myself. seeing as the rental is only like $20/day, i wouldnt care about paying for it on my own. i just wish this whole lil accident mess would have never happened. it's just one headache after another, literally.
i just want to hibernate for a few days. no phone, no tv, nothing. i just want to be left alone. is that going to happen? prally not.
i want to push everyone away and just be me and do nothing and talk to no one for a while, but at the same time i want someone there. i need a hug, thats all. just a hug.
my grandmother asked me to move back home. i told her that depending on what i could do with school, i'd think about it. i cant move back, but i'm having trouble saying no. my life is here. i need to finish school. i'll never get done if i keep uprooting once a year and moving half way across the country. but on the other hand..... she does need me. it would benefit her more than me if i were there. argh! what should i do?
and then there's my car...... the good news is that it's being fixed. bad news.... it most likely wont be done by the time i have to relinquish the rental which means that i could be without transportation until it's fixed or pay for it myself. seeing as the rental is only like $20/day, i wouldnt care about paying for it on my own. i just wish this whole lil accident mess would have never happened. it's just one headache after another, literally.
i just want to hibernate for a few days. no phone, no tv, nothing. i just want to be left alone. is that going to happen? prally not.