Daily Post
ok a ton of stuff to put in here but where to begin. the weekend i guess. ok last minute matt backs out from going camping with me and sarah to help his sister move in. ok whatever theres other weekends. like i was pissed at first cuz its not the first somtihng like this has happend but whatever were going to shoot for octber ninth that weekend i think for me matt sarah and sarah. that should be fun as long as i get my bed lol. im wicked sick. i was a little sick before i left to go camping and it just got worse and now sarah sick too. and yeah so it was halloween at sarahs camp ground so we went trick or treating it was great lol. my sister said she might be comming home like november ninth. i cant wait i miss her so much. ive sort of hung out with matt and his sister before and it made me miss my sister so much. (HAIRY BONES!!!!! lol sorry i had too).
yeah so everyones been like you should so tell that guy your into him but im way to much of a pussy to even start a conversation with him. and i dont think he feels the same way so it might be a waste of time. but id still like to like be friends with him atleast you know and if i was to bring up certain feeling i might have about him that could make a friendship NOT happen exspecially if hes not feeling the same way. i dont know whats going on with that one. and i havnt really told anyone but like i stare at him somtimes so he might know. eeeeeek!
yeah so ive completely given up on underwear all together im just going to wear boxers. and boxers are underwear so its not as bad as it sounds. i couldnt go completly comando like some people lol. and its not like you can even notice either.
im so sick of not haveing my own guitar. ive got so save up some money and get one and give matts back i feel bad becuase its not mine you know. i figured working at the fish bowl i could get some money but i got a letter from them today saying it wasnt going to work out and they sent me a check for working ONE DAY!!! and it turned out they only needed me on mondays and im super busy on mondays and plus they were only going to pay me like $5.10 and hour to clean shitty bird cages on mondays. so fuck them. lol i can find work somewhere else. but im still saving. and not eating lunch is helping me save money too. i really want my own guitar. i feel like such a user. i shouldnt even have taken the class if i knew i didnt have a guitar. im such a dumbass.
but ive got some good news too. ive been kind of sleeping better and i dont know if its because im sick or whats going on in my life or what but im sleeping better then i was not like super good or anything like that but better then i was. i don tknow so maybe things will go good with this mystery fellow lol. i dont know i hope so but they wont they never do lol.
matts suppose to be giving me a call when he gets a chance and im kind of nervious becuase i havnt talked to him in a while. and im not sure when hes going to call. i dont know what to say either. hopefully somtime soon. its like an excited nerviousness you know. i dont know ok im done (psst not about matt bates!!)
yeah so everyones been like you should so tell that guy your into him but im way to much of a pussy to even start a conversation with him. and i dont think he feels the same way so it might be a waste of time. but id still like to like be friends with him atleast you know and if i was to bring up certain feeling i might have about him that could make a friendship NOT happen exspecially if hes not feeling the same way. i dont know whats going on with that one. and i havnt really told anyone but like i stare at him somtimes so he might know. eeeeeek!
yeah so ive completely given up on underwear all together im just going to wear boxers. and boxers are underwear so its not as bad as it sounds. i couldnt go completly comando like some people lol. and its not like you can even notice either.
im so sick of not haveing my own guitar. ive got so save up some money and get one and give matts back i feel bad becuase its not mine you know. i figured working at the fish bowl i could get some money but i got a letter from them today saying it wasnt going to work out and they sent me a check for working ONE DAY!!! and it turned out they only needed me on mondays and im super busy on mondays and plus they were only going to pay me like $5.10 and hour to clean shitty bird cages on mondays. so fuck them. lol i can find work somewhere else. but im still saving. and not eating lunch is helping me save money too. i really want my own guitar. i feel like such a user. i shouldnt even have taken the class if i knew i didnt have a guitar. im such a dumbass.
but ive got some good news too. ive been kind of sleeping better and i dont know if its because im sick or whats going on in my life or what but im sleeping better then i was not like super good or anything like that but better then i was. i don tknow so maybe things will go good with this mystery fellow lol. i dont know i hope so but they wont they never do lol.
matts suppose to be giving me a call when he gets a chance and im kind of nervious becuase i havnt talked to him in a while. and im not sure when hes going to call. i dont know what to say either. hopefully somtime soon. its like an excited nerviousness you know. i dont know ok im done (psst not about matt bates!!)