May 15, 2006 21:17
Ok, prepare yourselves for the typical introspective graduation entry.
So, the whole surreal aspect of graduation is beginning to sink in. The whole appreciation of friends, family, Walton's little miseries we've all dealt with --- the constant drama and competition, the gossip, rumors, crappy bathrooms, excessive amounts of work (*cough* my love, Mr. Fleenor *cough*), ridiculous rules... all of it. It's all about to end and the whole thing feels very strange. I've actually been noticing how small and young everyone looks now and how I once looked that small and young. Whenever I'm in the empty halls, I actually take it all in. I keep thinking every day how I won't ever be attending school here again. I couldn't be happier about leaving...really, I've never been so ready for change, but it's still a very strange feeling. Thinking back on all of my experiences from the past four years is insane, trying to write a speech summarizing the high school experience is even more insane (it's impossible by the way... writing a graduation speech). It blows me away how such a crappy circumstance, high school, can have such an influence on us, or well maybe just me. It really all comes back to the people and relationships. Sharing countless lunches and tears with Nicole, finding Amy and Allon, opening my eyes, standing up for everything and everyone I believe in, becoming the person I love today, relying on Lane for absolutley everything... it's all happened in the past four years. I think we all know how petty and insignificant high school is, but the connections I've made in the past four years are some of the most meaningful aspects of my life. It's truly amazing what can surface from a place like Walton.
I look absolutely ridiculous in my gown by the way. Honestly, I think I have the wrong size. I could seriously fit four of me in it... so I look like I'm being swallowed by bad fabric.
Its. All. So. Weird.