Is it always gonna be this way?

[shannon1]

Over the past five years all Ive been used to is bein cheated on, lied to, fucked around and basicly treated like shit. Im sorry if dont just open up like that. Im not a talker, never have been I keep things to myself because thats what im used to. Bein with someone that doesnt fuck me about or cheat on me etc will get me out of the habit. Like I said trust isnt automaticly there it has to grow along with the relationship. I sat by and tried to reasure you everything would be ok and that I wouldnt do to you what he did but when it comes to YOU dealing with MY insecurities you walk away. I honestly didnt think it was gonna hurt but it does, once again I got involved and now Im hurtin in middle of yet another failed relationship. Now do you know why I was affraid to fall?.

How long until it happens again?