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I'm unabashedly happy here in Canada. It could be the honeymoon stage of having a holiday in another country, or it could really be because I don't feel the things I feel at home.
If I was born here and if my parents were raised here too, chances are, I won't even be having a hard time about myself because this society is inclusive and friendly.
There's a reason why I dread calls to home. The same issues are brought up, and the joy I feel while living here is destroyed by thoughts of the pain of what the phone call brings, reminding me that the pain at home still exists. And that one day I'll be back where the pain is again.
Honestly, I'm afraid to be back home now. Everything is bleak at home.
I don't think 5 months away from home is enough.
If I was born here and if my parents were raised here too, chances are, I won't even be having a hard time about myself because this society is inclusive and friendly.
There's a reason why I dread calls to home. The same issues are brought up, and the joy I feel while living here is destroyed by thoughts of the pain of what the phone call brings, reminding me that the pain at home still exists. And that one day I'll be back where the pain is again.
Honestly, I'm afraid to be back home now. Everything is bleak at home.
I don't think 5 months away from home is enough.