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Life is annoying. Better than being horrible, but annoying is still... annoying :|
There's too much going on right now. Finals are fast approaching, though I am pleased that I'll be done with it soon. I was originally looking forward to finally having a full Summer off for the first time in... oh, five years or so. But because of the 5-week Field School and having to take Linguistics immediately after to satisfy all my requirements for the Honors Program I am trying to get into for Fall '10/Spring '11, I will have no Summer :'( And honestly, I want to get into the program for the status... not really because I want to do it. I want to be able to say that I was in Honors on future resumes and for the confidence of knowing I AM AMONG A SMALL ELITE, because ugh, my self-esteem is actually shit and it'll make me feel a little bit better than other people. SO BAD RIGHT??
Then of course I got offered the census job, which pays great but the mandatory training (where I would make nearly $500 on JUST THAT) is during finals week. SOB. How will I be in two places at once... need Time Turner plz professor Dumbledore. I wish
Still sick, too. I finally had to go to the doctor after feeling like my lungs were going to explode from the uncontrollable coughing, and found out my insurance had been canceled because my mom's been out of work too long recovering from her knee surgery. FUN. I saw the doc anyway, and I have bronchitis. Because I'm so ghetto and poor now he had to give me free samples of an anti-biotic called Avelox which apparently is known to dissolve your tendons, poison your liver and heart, and even make your epidermis fall off. Wonderful, no? I haven't been working, either, since I can't go more than 5 minutes without going into a violent coughing fit, and my job requires a lot of talking. Also, been generally very weak, warm, constantly thirsty, and heat sensitive.
My prescriptions, too... which I am luckily not too close to running out of, will no longer be covered. THE PRESCRIPTIONS I USE TO MAINTAIN MY NORMAL MENTAL STABILITY, that reduce me to a shaky, anxious, and very ill-tempered maniac if I go for more than a day without taking them. They cost almost $400 for a month's supply without coverage. If my mom can't get her coverage back before I run out, I am so screwed.
Also not too pleased/sure about my grades lately :/ I just can seem to balance any of them out to an A; either that or they are so borderline A that it makes me nervous as hell that they'll drop to Bs. I have got to get into this Honors Program, and I need at least two As in my anthro classes to do that. I really really hope that I still have time to pull my most promising ones (Bio anthro and archaeology) up before the end of the year. It's all riding on my final papers and final exams at this point ;-;
I have Sarah to worry about, too. Once again, we were sure she'd have enough credits and a high enough GPA to get into USF for Fall semester... but we miscalculated, and she may have to take a Summer class or two to qualify. I feel horrible... it's because of me that she's out here even when she's already enrolled at UCF... it's just 100 miles away now :| I don't want her to have to go through any more trouble or make any more sacrifices on my behalf. But, if she wants to transfer to USF and actually start on her major's requirements, she has to :/ I just hope there aren't any more complications; she doesn't deserve to spend her college life online just to save my ass. It was my fault we had to move, even if I messed up years and years ago and the UCF admissions board were basically unreasonable, pompous dicks about all the hard work I did to show them how much I had changed.
Idk, life is, as I said, really annoying and uncertain and overwhelming right now.
There's too much going on right now. Finals are fast approaching, though I am pleased that I'll be done with it soon. I was originally looking forward to finally having a full Summer off for the first time in... oh, five years or so. But because of the 5-week Field School and having to take Linguistics immediately after to satisfy all my requirements for the Honors Program I am trying to get into for Fall '10/Spring '11, I will have no Summer :'( And honestly, I want to get into the program for the status... not really because I want to do it. I want to be able to say that I was in Honors on future resumes and for the confidence of knowing I AM AMONG A SMALL ELITE, because ugh, my self-esteem is actually shit and it'll make me feel a little bit better than other people. SO BAD RIGHT??
Then of course I got offered the census job, which pays great but the mandatory training (where I would make nearly $500 on JUST THAT) is during finals week. SOB. How will I be in two places at once... need Time Turner plz professor Dumbledore. I wish
Still sick, too. I finally had to go to the doctor after feeling like my lungs were going to explode from the uncontrollable coughing, and found out my insurance had been canceled because my mom's been out of work too long recovering from her knee surgery. FUN. I saw the doc anyway, and I have bronchitis. Because I'm so ghetto and poor now he had to give me free samples of an anti-biotic called Avelox which apparently is known to dissolve your tendons, poison your liver and heart, and even make your epidermis fall off. Wonderful, no? I haven't been working, either, since I can't go more than 5 minutes without going into a violent coughing fit, and my job requires a lot of talking. Also, been generally very weak, warm, constantly thirsty, and heat sensitive.
My prescriptions, too... which I am luckily not too close to running out of, will no longer be covered. THE PRESCRIPTIONS I USE TO MAINTAIN MY NORMAL MENTAL STABILITY, that reduce me to a shaky, anxious, and very ill-tempered maniac if I go for more than a day without taking them. They cost almost $400 for a month's supply without coverage. If my mom can't get her coverage back before I run out, I am so screwed.
Also not too pleased/sure about my grades lately :/ I just can seem to balance any of them out to an A; either that or they are so borderline A that it makes me nervous as hell that they'll drop to Bs. I have got to get into this Honors Program, and I need at least two As in my anthro classes to do that. I really really hope that I still have time to pull my most promising ones (Bio anthro and archaeology) up before the end of the year. It's all riding on my final papers and final exams at this point ;-;
I have Sarah to worry about, too. Once again, we were sure she'd have enough credits and a high enough GPA to get into USF for Fall semester... but we miscalculated, and she may have to take a Summer class or two to qualify. I feel horrible... it's because of me that she's out here even when she's already enrolled at UCF... it's just 100 miles away now :| I don't want her to have to go through any more trouble or make any more sacrifices on my behalf. But, if she wants to transfer to USF and actually start on her major's requirements, she has to :/ I just hope there aren't any more complications; she doesn't deserve to spend her college life online just to save my ass. It was my fault we had to move, even if I messed up years and years ago and the UCF admissions board were basically unreasonable, pompous dicks about all the hard work I did to show them how much I had changed.
Idk, life is, as I said, really annoying and uncertain and overwhelming right now.