The End.
This will be my last journal entry.
It is Thursday, 12:12 am. In one week from now is my ship out date.
I'm not afraid of "boot camp" I'm just afraid of leaving my family and close friends.
The last few weeks have been so great. I have been hanging with Derrick, my best guy friend in the world. I love him so much. We went out to dinner and are planning to see a movie together before I go. I think about him every day. I am so lucky to have him in my life. I talked to Marquet on the phone yesterday for about an hour. It was awesome. I love her, I always will. We will always see each other a way nobody else can ever understand. She is so real, I wish her and Alex all the best. Marquet is my angel. I'm gonna drop by her house tomorrow to see her and her family.
Nichols' and I are doing great. I held him tonight and cried, thinking about leaving him. He was asleep, he didn't know. I snuck out quietly not to wake him. I stopped by my work today. The crew gave me a going away card. It made me cry. The group of people I hang out with at my work mean so much to me. They have been so supportive and loving. I will never ever forget them. I seen Jeff at the mall today right after I had a little bit of a break down in the red robin bathroom. It was really nice to see him. my heart felt so much lighter. I didnt get to talk to him for long because I was picking sierra up from soccer tonight. Jeff is an angel. With all of my busy "going away" parties I have been attending, and all the crazy nights I have been living I haven't gave jeff a call. It made me feel really bad when I seen him today. He deserves better than that. Hopefully I'm not such an immature, flaky person when I come back from bootcamp. I will admit I am those things in a heart beat. I have been so busy packing my shit, and moving everything out of my room that I havent got to work on the scrap book Im making Nikki. I know she'll be pissed about that. But I just cant do it right now. I know I should have when I had time... but I didn't... I usually wait til last minuet to do anything... but this "last minuet" is too difficult to do anything more than try to stay sane. I love Nikki. She knows that... but I don't think she understand how much. I need to talk to Dorian. I miss him. We are living like we live in two different states... I guess it's the whole.. "living different life styles" thing. Its dumb.
Friday I'm going to Disney land. I'll be back Monday. It was all a suprise. I didn't expect we'd end up going. I'm so happy that we are though. I'm going to be so emotional the whole time there.
Tuesday and wednessday won't be too stressful I hope. And I hope to see everyone I love before I leave.
I love my family.
This is Shasta signing out. Thanks for being there. Best of luck to everyone. Maybe I'll be seeing ya'll this Christmas when I come home. Goodnight.
It is Thursday, 12:12 am. In one week from now is my ship out date.
I'm not afraid of "boot camp" I'm just afraid of leaving my family and close friends.
The last few weeks have been so great. I have been hanging with Derrick, my best guy friend in the world. I love him so much. We went out to dinner and are planning to see a movie together before I go. I think about him every day. I am so lucky to have him in my life. I talked to Marquet on the phone yesterday for about an hour. It was awesome. I love her, I always will. We will always see each other a way nobody else can ever understand. She is so real, I wish her and Alex all the best. Marquet is my angel. I'm gonna drop by her house tomorrow to see her and her family.
Nichols' and I are doing great. I held him tonight and cried, thinking about leaving him. He was asleep, he didn't know. I snuck out quietly not to wake him. I stopped by my work today. The crew gave me a going away card. It made me cry. The group of people I hang out with at my work mean so much to me. They have been so supportive and loving. I will never ever forget them. I seen Jeff at the mall today right after I had a little bit of a break down in the red robin bathroom. It was really nice to see him. my heart felt so much lighter. I didnt get to talk to him for long because I was picking sierra up from soccer tonight. Jeff is an angel. With all of my busy "going away" parties I have been attending, and all the crazy nights I have been living I haven't gave jeff a call. It made me feel really bad when I seen him today. He deserves better than that. Hopefully I'm not such an immature, flaky person when I come back from bootcamp. I will admit I am those things in a heart beat. I have been so busy packing my shit, and moving everything out of my room that I havent got to work on the scrap book Im making Nikki. I know she'll be pissed about that. But I just cant do it right now. I know I should have when I had time... but I didn't... I usually wait til last minuet to do anything... but this "last minuet" is too difficult to do anything more than try to stay sane. I love Nikki. She knows that... but I don't think she understand how much. I need to talk to Dorian. I miss him. We are living like we live in two different states... I guess it's the whole.. "living different life styles" thing. Its dumb.
Friday I'm going to Disney land. I'll be back Monday. It was all a suprise. I didn't expect we'd end up going. I'm so happy that we are though. I'm going to be so emotional the whole time there.
Tuesday and wednessday won't be too stressful I hope. And I hope to see everyone I love before I leave.
I love my family.
This is Shasta signing out. Thanks for being there. Best of luck to everyone. Maybe I'll be seeing ya'll this Christmas when I come home. Goodnight.