.:Finding Peace:.
Hrm. Things have been so busy lately. Sometimes that is a good thing, but sometimes it feels like more of a burden. It's during those times of busy-ness that I seem to feel the weight of it all pressing down on me. That may sound dramatic, but I don't know how else to describe it.
We've had some wonderful trips lately, spent with family, to celebrate a wedding. While those times have been wonderful, they've also caused stress in the process. Our car broke down on the way to Oregon, in the middle of the Nevada desert. Let's just say it was basically a nightmare all around, but the light in all of it was that I miraculously had cell phone service. But it just seems to be one car trouble after another these past few weeks. Car trouble, on top of the constant demands for my time just builds up so much on top of everything else that has been thrust into our lives that I feel like I'm suffocating. When are we going to catch a break? How much do we have to go through before things start to turn around?
That's my selfishness talking. I know things aren't as bad as they seem. I had a moment of peace strike me as I was driving home from work last week. For whatever reason, I somehow seemed to get the sense that everything was going to be just fine. For that moment, I knew I was okay; that we would be okay. Regardless of the emotional and physical stress of losing two pregnancies in the past three months. Regardless of the financial situation we've found ourselves in due to surgery, doctor's visits, and car problems. Regardless of the stress of packing up my classroom (this is way more difficult and overwhelming than it sounds!) and preparing to start over at a brand new school. We are going to be okay.
Like most things in life, I have a choice. I can choose to let these things bring me down, and be miserable through it all. Or I can choose to allow myself moments of sadness/frustration/anger, but then choose to pick myself up and do what is asked of me with a positive attitude - and perhaps lean on my wonderfully supportive husband along the way...
When I make the choice to do what needs to be done, and enjoy and learn from the journey along the way - that's when and where I will find peace.
We've had some wonderful trips lately, spent with family, to celebrate a wedding. While those times have been wonderful, they've also caused stress in the process. Our car broke down on the way to Oregon, in the middle of the Nevada desert. Let's just say it was basically a nightmare all around, but the light in all of it was that I miraculously had cell phone service. But it just seems to be one car trouble after another these past few weeks. Car trouble, on top of the constant demands for my time just builds up so much on top of everything else that has been thrust into our lives that I feel like I'm suffocating. When are we going to catch a break? How much do we have to go through before things start to turn around?
That's my selfishness talking. I know things aren't as bad as they seem. I had a moment of peace strike me as I was driving home from work last week. For whatever reason, I somehow seemed to get the sense that everything was going to be just fine. For that moment, I knew I was okay; that we would be okay. Regardless of the emotional and physical stress of losing two pregnancies in the past three months. Regardless of the financial situation we've found ourselves in due to surgery, doctor's visits, and car problems. Regardless of the stress of packing up my classroom (this is way more difficult and overwhelming than it sounds!) and preparing to start over at a brand new school. We are going to be okay.
Like most things in life, I have a choice. I can choose to let these things bring me down, and be miserable through it all. Or I can choose to allow myself moments of sadness/frustration/anger, but then choose to pick myself up and do what is asked of me with a positive attitude - and perhaps lean on my wonderfully supportive husband along the way...
When I make the choice to do what needs to be done, and enjoy and learn from the journey along the way - that's when and where I will find peace.