lost for words, lost for life
today, the world stopped spinning, today my sunshine went away, today... today... today, grey clouds cluster over my head, back to the dark days i resume, for somthing so great... is never true and never worth striving for.
well *tear*... =..( what i feared would happen, what ive been scared of ever sence i met the girl who captured my heart has happend.. i guess somthing so great, as that just isnt met to be... idk.. we left both thinking or what we want to occur, but she made it obvious, that she wanted to discontinue what we had together.... i feel heart broken, i saw somthing... i DID somthing i never want to do... i watcher her cry... and i realize that i did that.. i made her shed those tears, and it rips me up inside! I really enjoyed being with her, but idk... i guess it just wasnt there....... im so lost right now... i just wish i had someone i could talk too...
i dont know what to do..what step i should make next... where i should go, i ... i just dont know anymore...i thought everything was great.. that i was ontop of the world.. i knew we had some small small small problems, and i know those could have been worked out, but i guess those thoughts were not shared by both of us.. i dont know, i feel like i did when i was in middle school, alone, grey... unsure... affraid, depressed... take your pick every odd painfull emotion i feel i have... i just wish this day never happend... i reall do! i would trade anything for it to be changed, for it to have occured another way, i just things could go back to like they where 3 months ago...sigh
i cant stand to sit anylonger i need to do somthing,
Cyn.... tear... here is one of those poems that i told you about from my poet book...i hope you enjoy, maybe ill see you monday ... maybe not....
-Tear Drop-
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Trickle, Trickle
Trout, Trout
Each tear drop is just another painfull thought,
Throughout your years,
many tears will come and pass,
each dripping away those painfull memories,
Dont dispare,
Dont disspurse,
Those tears will make your heart thurst,
For love,
For lust,
For at last someone to claim your pation,
Trickle, Trickle
Trout, Trout,
This will be the last drop.
*By*
Shane P. Enger
well *tear*... =..( what i feared would happen, what ive been scared of ever sence i met the girl who captured my heart has happend.. i guess somthing so great, as that just isnt met to be... idk.. we left both thinking or what we want to occur, but she made it obvious, that she wanted to discontinue what we had together.... i feel heart broken, i saw somthing... i DID somthing i never want to do... i watcher her cry... and i realize that i did that.. i made her shed those tears, and it rips me up inside! I really enjoyed being with her, but idk... i guess it just wasnt there....... im so lost right now... i just wish i had someone i could talk too...
i dont know what to do..what step i should make next... where i should go, i ... i just dont know anymore...i thought everything was great.. that i was ontop of the world.. i knew we had some small small small problems, and i know those could have been worked out, but i guess those thoughts were not shared by both of us.. i dont know, i feel like i did when i was in middle school, alone, grey... unsure... affraid, depressed... take your pick every odd painfull emotion i feel i have... i just wish this day never happend... i reall do! i would trade anything for it to be changed, for it to have occured another way, i just things could go back to like they where 3 months ago...sigh
i cant stand to sit anylonger i need to do somthing,
Cyn.... tear... here is one of those poems that i told you about from my poet book...i hope you enjoy, maybe ill see you monday ... maybe not....
-Tear Drop-
--------------
Trickle, Trickle
Trout, Trout
Each tear drop is just another painfull thought,
Throughout your years,
many tears will come and pass,
each dripping away those painfull memories,
Dont dispare,
Dont disspurse,
Those tears will make your heart thurst,
For love,
For lust,
For at last someone to claim your pation,
Trickle, Trickle
Trout, Trout,
This will be the last drop.
*By*
Shane P. Enger