This Charming Sam

[shangrilada]

Title: This Charming Sam
Summary: Stanford-era: Dean has been looking forward to Sam's spring break for a long time. And nothing's going to ruin it. Not Sam's asthma, not John, and definitely not this thing they've managed to avoid talking about until now. Definitely not that.
Warnings/Spoilers: No spoilers, bad language. 
Wordcount: 10,118, but it

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[brosedshield]

SO SWEET AND WONDERFUL AND HEARTBREAKING AND WONDERFUL.

I think the bit that got me the most was realizing that they really hadn't even been on a rollercoaster. Because they were both so EXCITED, and cocky, and delighted, and then it was like "Oh, crap", and yet wonderful at the same time.

I also love Sam's badass memory. Yes, Dean, Sam remembers all of that. But you've got it wrong because you regularly forget how awesome you are if it will make the people around you look better. LOVE.

Though, with all good fic that includes Jessica, I now want her...and Sam...and Dean ALL TOGETHER AND HAPPY AND FAMILY. Because they definitely all deserve it.

And John too (he, too, deserves commentary). A sneaky bastard in all the right not-quiet-right ways. Ah, John. Always, you are concerned, and it's just hurting everyone.

[shangrilada]

I have a thing for Jessica right now that I can't really explain, but my brain can't yet handle having her and Dean in the same room yet. Hopefully I'll get there.

I'm writing something right now where John is kind of awesome! Still stupid and John about it, but in a way that makes it obvious that he loves his boys...and I'm having a reaaaally fun time contrasting how Dean thinks about his kid with how John thinks about his.

So glad you liked this, thank you so much.

[brosedshield]

Mwahahah, I'm just happy about more of all of them.

Yeah, John loves his sons. He just...never seems capable of showing this in a way that isn't crushing and a little damaging to them at the same time. *frowns at him while patting him sympathetically at the same time*

[shangrilada]

I love John as a character. I'm so fucking fascinated, especially with the dynamic between him and Sam, because I just...I think he loves Sam so much more than he loves Dean, honestly, and I think that's such a painful thing for all three of them.

[brosedshield]

I find them fascinating as well but...I never thought that John loves Sam more. Just that Sam requires more...thought?

Like, Dean is easy: this kid does what he's told, quickly, quietly, well, and he knows all the secrets I have, he SAW his mother burn, I'm proud of him and don't have to think about him.

But Sam, first of all is a baby, then he's an innocent (but still needs to be shaped so he can protect himself), and then he's a pain in the ass fighting John every step of the way at the same time that he's smart enough to be good at what they do and over all of THAT he might go evil any day and John knows he might have to put a bullet in him (and, though it all, they are so complex, with this mutual ability to obsess and fight for what they want).

And now I am sad about John and Sam and Dean an quite looking forward to seeing your view of him (sorry if my thoughts distracted you)

[shangrilada]

no no, they're perfect and amazing, haha.

You're right, Sam is just SO much more of a challenge, and I think John just does not respect Dean, but he's kind of forced to respect Sam because he's just so fucking BIG in all of his Samness (which is part of what makes late-series Sam so sad...I mean, the kid's hiding behind big brother.)

[brosedshield]

Oh, lack of respect *now has another reason to hate/want to smack John just a little bit* That makes a lot of sense. *is sad for Dean all over again*

[shangrilada]

I know. Poor Dean. I love him to death. He's so fun to write. John just complimented him in the one I'm writing and he's so thrown for a loop by it, it's crazy depressing.