You May Tire of Me

[shangrilada]

Title: You May Tire of Me
Summary: Dean and Sam have a lot in common. One is that they get better but they don't get well. 
Wordcount: 4,623
Author's Note: Jess Lives-verse! (This verse needs a title, does anyone have ideas? Hit me!) This one sort of took on a life of its own. Also I have no naming convention for these yet. I'm flying blind, people.

Comments

[lavinialavender]

OH GOD WHAT A HEARTBREAKING FIC. I didn't expect alcoholic!Dean at all...I mean, it's just weird considering what AU this is, that none of the things that happened in the series have taken place here. But yeah, there's the genetic disposition. And it started out so cheerfully with the Russian bar plans!

There are so many heartbreaking pieces here, more than I can count (one: "He doesn't think he's hit bottom, but he does think that he almost hit his a hundred and four degree brother.") -- I like how you capture the cyclical nature to it, the false starts and stops...

I'm glad Dean finally got the right motivation -- augh, though, that it got so bad. Sam deserves such a better salary...

[shangrilada]

I've become very enamored with alcoholic dean. I blame familybizness.

I definitely didn't predict this would get as sad as it did when I started. like you said, russian bars! so cheerful!

it's going to be a tough road for dean, but at least he's acknowledged there's an issue.

[lavinialavender]

Augh. So, okay, since it's a 'verse, I'm going to have more questions. Sam's 23, right -- doesn't he have a degree by now? And if he does, with his brain, why doesn't he have a better, easier-to-manage-with-asthma job with a hell of a lot better salary? How long have Jess and Sam been married, and how long has Dean been living with them?

And I forgot to tell you how much I loved Jess and Dean's conversation about how much they love Sam and how lovely he is in the first section, hee. It was the best thing, seeing Dean Winchester shout the word "LOVELY!" while drunk off his ass in a bar. AND I loved Jess just coming out with the fact that John suspects his sons of sleeping together, omg, and Dean's response to that.

Have read the other comments and am intrigued by possible Sam/Jess/Dean triangles...if you go that route, I do hope there'll finally be an element of Wincest, at least acknowledged...and also I hope you confront the issue that Dean's feelings for Jess are likely rooted in how he's never had a stable female figure

[shangrilada]

HOKAY

hooopefully all of this will be answered in more fics, but this is Sam's 23rd birthday (at the end of this one) so Dean's been living with them for about three months at the start of this one. Sam and Jess aren't married yet, Dean just used "sister in law" as a term of endearment/simplification.

I highly doubt sam/jess/dean will ever be consummated, but absolutely it's rooted in dean's complicated feelings for sam that you know I love so very much, but, yeah, i don't think it's ever going to go full throttle wincest. i'm sorry, bb! you know I love you.

[lavinialavender]

Thanks for the info now! Especially about the "sister-in-law" detail. But I do really want to know what your Sam is going to do with his life, because he has such a wonderful brain and personality and crappy respiratory system...

Okay, thanks for that clarification too. :) I didn't meant to push, I just saw you go "ding ding ding" to the Dean/Jess/Sam suggestion, and well, if there's going to be ANY of that and yet nothing physical exchanged between the boys, I will have to toss my computer out the window and stage some sort of street protest.

[shangrilada]

lololol oh baby don't worry, dean and sam are my otp and always will be. well...maybe sam and jess, i'll admit. i don't take the o in otp too literally.

I don't know what Sam will do! I guess we'll see. I think one of the earlier stories mentioned family law.

[lavinialavender]

I'm having a fun time developing my own settled-life!AU (which is actually an AU to my enormous AU, Freak Camp)...it was interesting brainstorming jobs for Dean while Sam attempts this college thing. (Oh, and not to spill the beans if you have any FC readers lurking here, but I'm looking forward to Sam eventually meeting Jess on his campus in Boulder, and yes I've contrived a reason she isn't at Stanford. :) In the FC 'verse, the boys aren't brothers but they are soulmates and of course partners/lovers and very firmly committed to each other by this point, but Jess and Sam are going to be BFFs and have delightful adventures together, it's going to be great.)

ANYWAY, point is, I wanted to avoid the usual trope of Dean working in an auto shop, because it seemed too easy, so instead he'll make a short attempt at being some type of delivery man -- driving, you know -- and then end up in a glass shop. Probably specializing in auto glass. Because it's appropriate for our Dean to handle fragile things. :)

[shangrilada]

HURRAH bffs!

haha, yeah, my dean's mentioned as auto-working here. WHATEVER, DEAN, this verse is about your brother and you know it.

[lavinialavender]

Hey, it's a perfectly appropriate profession for him, probably the one he'd get along best in. :) Or bartending, but only a 'verse where he isn't an alcoholic.... Anyway, yeah, I wanted to make things a bit harder for him in our 'verse.

[shangrilada]

i like your choice :)

[lavinialavender]

AND I'M BACK to tell you that this fic, like so many others you've written, is haunting me. All today, I've been shuddering at random times, thinking about this version where Dean is an alcoholic and...the consequences are just so, so awful. Particularly here, because it destroys his ability to fulfill his role as big-brother/caretaker, which is vital to his identity, particularly in this 'verse. It gives me actual chills.

[shangrilada]

<3 <3

[familybizness]

pause for love!

[shangrilada]

mwah