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by the way... if anyone wants to know, I.....still love Kelsey, just that she don't love me so it's worthless. I mean, if I can't love Kelsey who can I love? Just ugh... what the fuck does it matter anymore. I don't even feel like writing in this goddamn journal because it doesn't help even - one - goddamn thing, it just makes me realize my depression and how I fuck up EVERYTHING. I can't have a relationship without fucking it up somehow, and I really felt something with Kelsey but if I'm given up just like that it's pretty shit. I'm not going to suicide, at least for now. I don't -want- to suicide, it's a far harsh reality that you're never coming back but sometimes when things add up, there's really only one way out. =D Have a good life.