Confused
I know - I can't fall for her. I can't think of her constantly through out my day. I don't want to...but I can't help it. I try to not think about her, but she's everywhere. I go to school and she's there, waiting for me...well, not really waiting for me, but in the general area of where I will be. She's my friend, so naturally we hang out together in the morning and after school. This is why it's so difficult. I don't think she knows that I think of her, but I do think of her. I don't even think that she sees me as more than a friend. I try to show it. I'm nicer to her than anyone else. I hug her and accept her hugs with widely open arms. She'll hold my hand and I give it squeezes. I think I might implode! She drives me crazy. I try not to think of her. Recently I have been lack in hugs, limp when holding her hand and I try not to look at her - because her beauty is mesmerizing. She's noticed this. I hope this makes her go towards someone else because if we remain this close - I don't think I can take it anymore. I love her and thus I shall let her go.