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Despair and sadness. Heh.... Seems nothings changed. Im still losing control and still losing my mind. Im scared that I am going to break. I still can't handle stress. My stomach is upset from the anxiety. All I got was a ticket. Such a strong reaction, for such a small thing. I guess all I have been doing is burying it. I'm worried that I might not get better. I dont really know what I need to do. Without motivation or care, I'm not really going to try.
Heres a poem I wrote while I was driving. Its roots are Metallica- King Nothing:
Wheres your crown now
King of nothing
Ruler of none
Whos left to control
When you have burned it down
All your freedoms gone
Its shackled to the wall
Locked up next to your soul
Everyones laughing
Pointing at what remains
You've been washed away
In a flood of hate
Damned of the oppressed
To a life beneath
Bleeding from the wounds
Of a shattered ego
Cuts that never heal
A crumbled empire
Your crown is gone
Ripped off your head
Taken from where it does'nt belong
You've lost it all
There's no way back
Give up your desires
They will never come true
Feel the despair
The cold is creeping in
Freezing your brain
Boiling your blood
Consumed by the fire
Caused by your ignorance
You turned a blind eye
It cost you all
Now you can only see the bottom
Through the reflection in the mirror
Look at what you have become
Sunk lower then the rest
Left where you will rot
Death dealt by your own decay
Wallowing in your filth
Your iron fist weighed you down
Your destiny is drawing to a close
Come accept your fate
Heres a poem I wrote while I was driving. Its roots are Metallica- King Nothing:
Wheres your crown now
King of nothing
Ruler of none
Whos left to control
When you have burned it down
All your freedoms gone
Its shackled to the wall
Locked up next to your soul
Everyones laughing
Pointing at what remains
You've been washed away
In a flood of hate
Damned of the oppressed
To a life beneath
Bleeding from the wounds
Of a shattered ego
Cuts that never heal
A crumbled empire
Your crown is gone
Ripped off your head
Taken from where it does'nt belong
You've lost it all
There's no way back
Give up your desires
They will never come true
Feel the despair
The cold is creeping in
Freezing your brain
Boiling your blood
Consumed by the fire
Caused by your ignorance
You turned a blind eye
It cost you all
Now you can only see the bottom
Through the reflection in the mirror
Look at what you have become
Sunk lower then the rest
Left where you will rot
Death dealt by your own decay
Wallowing in your filth
Your iron fist weighed you down
Your destiny is drawing to a close
Come accept your fate