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[shane_70]

I have been talking to my old girlfriend Melissa Cook. We went out when I was in high school, she was the greatest girlfriend I ever had and one time she told me she loved me over the phone. I start to freak out and break up with her a week later. From that day on I couldn’t get her out of my mind and I would think over and over that I shouldn’t have break up with. I really think this could be the woman I could fall love with if she would let me. I really want to found out if I could love her because I can’t get her out of my mind. Every time I start to talk to other girl I think to my self “I wish this was Melissa” they is a really big problem about this whole thing, she is in the air forces and doesn’t plan to get out until she 20 years are up. I want to be with this girl, I would do anything to have she in my arms again, but I not sure if I should give up all my dreams to be with her. I know I could fall in love with her, but if something happen and we end up breaking up or something than I would be fucked. She wouldn't have anything to give up because I would have move to whatever base she is at. I really don’t know what to do, and it is killing me because the only thing I do know for a fact is that I want her back with me. I mean I would love for else to be all happy and fall in love then move in together and grow old together but not everything goes the way you want them. if anyone can help tell me because my mind is breaking down thinking about this.
the other thing is that I have one more year of college letf and I don’t want to stop going to college at the place I am at.