Still don't want to follow it.
Thanks to those who found/responded to my other rambling.
I still don't really want to write here, to have things fall so amazingly crashingly down, but oh well. I don't really suppose I'll just ignore it forever either, so something has to come next.
For those who didn't find my other rambling - there was much fear and upset and stress in it.
All of which is still around really. And increased. Two new(er) life developments also have me pretty much balanced on some thin line between being a real person and a quivering mess. I'm trying my hardest to stave off the downward spiral, but I don't know. It's all exhausting.
I'm not talking to anyone because I'm sure if I open my mouth I won't be able to shut it again. I'm not listening to anyone because I'm not sure I'm capable of taking anything more in. I just want to give up. And unfortunately, you don't get to do that in life. So I'm here.
And if I self-destruct somehow soon, oh well.
I still don't really want to write here, to have things fall so amazingly crashingly down, but oh well. I don't really suppose I'll just ignore it forever either, so something has to come next.
For those who didn't find my other rambling - there was much fear and upset and stress in it.
All of which is still around really. And increased. Two new(er) life developments also have me pretty much balanced on some thin line between being a real person and a quivering mess. I'm trying my hardest to stave off the downward spiral, but I don't know. It's all exhausting.
I'm not talking to anyone because I'm sure if I open my mouth I won't be able to shut it again. I'm not listening to anyone because I'm not sure I'm capable of taking anything more in. I just want to give up. And unfortunately, you don't get to do that in life. So I'm here.
And if I self-destruct somehow soon, oh well.