Death Sucks
This hasn't been a fun couple of weeks. Last week Mandy's grandmother died, Katie's grandmother died, a football player's grandmother died, Tuesday one of my student's grandfather died and on Wednesday I found out that my uncle died. I'm not liking this trend. My uncle is the third person in my family to die in the last year and a half. He had a heart attack in his sleep so this was really sudden news. I cried for about half a hour until Jennifer came over for our Wednesday night hangout session. I have this thing about not crying in front of people. Call it an emotional wall I guess. Thomas happened to call about an hour later and it helped to talk to. I heart that kid. He talked me into flying home instead of driving which would have been suicidal. He even tried to talked me into letting him buy my plane ticket home. I mean really come on. I don't know how I have managed to be so blessed to have the friends I do considering I'm so emotionally and socially retarded. That and I know that I've been isolating myself from them since I moved to North Carolina unintentionally. If you didn't know please don't feel like I went out of my way not to tell you. I haven't told anyone. I made it through Thursday okay but today was really rough especially in the afternoon. I considered just walking out of work a couple of times because I thought I was going to lose it but I managed to make it through. I got home and fell asleep crying. I'm just so exhausted. I haven't been able to sleep the last two nights. Like daughter like father I guess in that respect. I fly home Sunday and the only flight I could find that wasn't almost $500 has a 5 hour lay over in Memphis. Ugh. The funeral is on Tuesday, Wednesday is my birthday. I miss my family.