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My entire life I've been fortunate enough not to have to deal the the tragedy of death in my family. When I think about it maybe in my entire life 2 people in my extended family that I knew have died and that was when I was young. I had no real concept of it. That was until this year. In the fall my mom's youngest brother died. He was only 2 years older than me. I thing is that I've only met him once when I was in the forth grade maybe. He still lived in Haiti and that was the only time I've ever lived there. So while I was devastated it wasn't because he meant so much to me. It was because he meant so much to my mom and I couldnt be in Florida with her.
About 15 minutes ago my dad called me to tell me that a friend of the family Gabriel died. Most of our friends of the family aren't just friends. They ARE family to us. I spent a countless number of hours over their house growing up. Them being Gabriel, his wife and their daughters Denise and Gabrielle. They were my parents: if I was hungry they fed me, if I was sick at school and my parents weren't home they picked me up, if I did something wrong they spanked me. Thier daughters were my sisters: if I needed help in school they taught me, when I could go to their house straight from school they would give me their clothes to wear, the stood up for me when people pushed me around.
It's so weird. I just have no idea how to react. He's been sick for awhile but it still just comes as a shock. People aren't suppose to leave you forever without you being able to say goodbye. Being able to say thank you for everything you've given me. Thank you even more because I know you think you haven't given much but you gave me everything you could. His is later years he wasn't the best person in the world. He actually distanced himself from a lot of people but that doesn't erase all the good he did. I just don't even know what to say to Gabrielle. I mean I'm sorry doesn't express much. All that I've feeling. Who am I kidding? I don't even know what I'm feeling.
Most of the time I'm just this big ball of emotion and I don't know how to express it. Keep my family in your thoughts for me please.
About 15 minutes ago my dad called me to tell me that a friend of the family Gabriel died. Most of our friends of the family aren't just friends. They ARE family to us. I spent a countless number of hours over their house growing up. Them being Gabriel, his wife and their daughters Denise and Gabrielle. They were my parents: if I was hungry they fed me, if I was sick at school and my parents weren't home they picked me up, if I did something wrong they spanked me. Thier daughters were my sisters: if I needed help in school they taught me, when I could go to their house straight from school they would give me their clothes to wear, the stood up for me when people pushed me around.
It's so weird. I just have no idea how to react. He's been sick for awhile but it still just comes as a shock. People aren't suppose to leave you forever without you being able to say goodbye. Being able to say thank you for everything you've given me. Thank you even more because I know you think you haven't given much but you gave me everything you could. His is later years he wasn't the best person in the world. He actually distanced himself from a lot of people but that doesn't erase all the good he did. I just don't even know what to say to Gabrielle. I mean I'm sorry doesn't express much. All that I've feeling. Who am I kidding? I don't even know what I'm feeling.
Most of the time I'm just this big ball of emotion and I don't know how to express it. Keep my family in your thoughts for me please.