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I am so fucked up in the head right now. Why did I have to go totally fall for the wrong guy?
Mike & I offically broke up yesterday. I keep telling myself that it is for the best, but I can't say that I feel that way right now. I know that being with him can't be a good thing for me but I don't know what to do with myself now that I don't have him. All that I wanted to do was spend time with him, as much as I could, after he had his car accident and now before he goes to jail for it. My feelings are just really hurt right now and I don't know what to do with myself. I worked myself into a migraine today and couldn't even go to work. I feel like I lost my best friend now too and I'm totally confused. Everybody keeps telling me that it is a good thing that it happened and that I'm better off and that makes it hurt even more. He has previously & currently had a lot of problems but I know deep down that he is a great guy and that for some fucked up reason, we were meant to be together. I haven't been this messed up from a guy in years. YEARS. Not since Anthony have I been like this. Christ.
I guess I better go clean my place up so Renea won't be horrified @ my living conditions tomorrow night.
Mike & I offically broke up yesterday. I keep telling myself that it is for the best, but I can't say that I feel that way right now. I know that being with him can't be a good thing for me but I don't know what to do with myself now that I don't have him. All that I wanted to do was spend time with him, as much as I could, after he had his car accident and now before he goes to jail for it. My feelings are just really hurt right now and I don't know what to do with myself. I worked myself into a migraine today and couldn't even go to work. I feel like I lost my best friend now too and I'm totally confused. Everybody keeps telling me that it is a good thing that it happened and that I'm better off and that makes it hurt even more. He has previously & currently had a lot of problems but I know deep down that he is a great guy and that for some fucked up reason, we were meant to be together. I haven't been this messed up from a guy in years. YEARS. Not since Anthony have I been like this. Christ.
I guess I better go clean my place up so Renea won't be horrified @ my living conditions tomorrow night.