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Well I've officially walked, but I'm not graduated quite yet. However yesterday morning I finished the last bits of the dissertation and today I get to hand it to one committee member (the other being out of town until next week). Bossman has given me the go ahead to hand those in though he hasn't yet said he'd sign it.
I have a lot of lab cleaning to do. LOTS of lab cleaning. Most of it at this point isn't mine, just junk that hasn't been moved and won't be. *grumble* Samples to sort through, spectra to organize, that sort of thing. I'm utterly unmotivated to do it though.
In many ways I don't want to be done. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with my life, I'm not sure even where/what/when I'll have a job. Being a student/graduate student is so much a part of my identity that it feels odd to be going on with things. The fact that I'm the last one in the lab here isn't helping. It really feels like lots of things are ending and only a big wash of uncertainty and chaos to look forward to. I am looking forward to some down time, and Pennsic and playing a bit. But I don't know what I want to do next. These are not the droids you're looking for.
Somebody tell me I'm just being neurotic and it'll be OK.
I have a lot of lab cleaning to do. LOTS of lab cleaning. Most of it at this point isn't mine, just junk that hasn't been moved and won't be. *grumble* Samples to sort through, spectra to organize, that sort of thing. I'm utterly unmotivated to do it though.
In many ways I don't want to be done. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with my life, I'm not sure even where/what/when I'll have a job. Being a student/graduate student is so much a part of my identity that it feels odd to be going on with things. The fact that I'm the last one in the lab here isn't helping. It really feels like lots of things are ending and only a big wash of uncertainty and chaos to look forward to. I am looking forward to some down time, and Pennsic and playing a bit. But I don't know what I want to do next. These are not the droids you're looking for.
Somebody tell me I'm just being neurotic and it'll be OK.