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Ya know they have me on these stupid treatments but they don’t work or at least they don’t make me feel any better so I called this morning and canceled the rest of them. If something is going to happen then its meant to be im really sick of hospitals and everything to do with them. So I guess I have to find something to do during treatment time so my mom don’t get suspicious. I am really at the point I don’t care and im sure that’s sad to say but a person can only withstand and take so much. I guess im just really sick of things around here. I actually was thinking about going back to Boston like I was going to last year. But I know what is gonna happen as soon as I get there im gonna start using again and end myself up in rehab again and that is about the last place I want to be. I just need some kind of change.