It's time for me to breakaway....
Well, its been awhile since I've updated. I have gone back home, and I can honestly say I can't wait til I can afford to move out. I know it would be easier if I had a roommate, and in all honestly thats my best option. But, I want to have my own apartment. A place that is just mine. Where no one can get mad if I leave dishes in the sink, or clothes on the floor. The only reason I don't want to live on my own is cause I know I would get lonely. Although, I could always have people stay over if I got really lonely...
In anycase, I can't afford it anytime soon, so I am stuck at home to deal with my parents. We just don't get along when we have to live under the same roof. They blame me for messes that aren't mine, they give me attitude, which leads to me giving attitude... but when that happens, I'm the one with the problem. They don't realize that I respond to how they treat me.
An another note... I am once again sick. And it blows. Only this time I'm not contagious so I can go to work. Thank god! If I couldnt work, I would go nuts. I've found that working keeps me sane. But, I have to deal with having an URI (Upper Respitory Infection for those of you who dont know medical abbreviations) and I still have strep throat, but not contagious, and I also have a bacterial infection in my sinus, and an ear infection. Lol. I seriously have body issues. At least I can laugh at it now... not so funny when I didnt have meds for it all though...
So, last night I went and saw The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants with the two Shannons. It was a good movie. I'm glad I saw it with my Shanni!! I can't believe the girl is moving! And to Michigan! It's so far away! I will definitely have to save my money and go see her though. I don't know what I will do with myself now that she is moving. I guess I took for granted that she was always here.. and now she won't be :o( I'm happy for her though. She's doing what she needs to do, and I admire that she has the courage to just do it. To just pack up and go. I wish I could do that. If I had the courage and the finances to do so, I would pack all my things up and move to New York. Or Oklahoma. I would go to those two places, b/c I could be on my own, living my own life without my immediate family telling me I'm doing everything wrong, but I would still have family around. My dad's family is out in Oklahoma City, and my mom's is in New York.
It's weird. I've lived in Ft Myers my whole life- I was born and raised here. But when I'm in OK or NY, it feels more like home than Florida does. It always has been that way. I guess it may always be that way. I'll never know until I spread my wings and breakaway from all I know... Hopefully one day I will get there....
In anycase, I can't afford it anytime soon, so I am stuck at home to deal with my parents. We just don't get along when we have to live under the same roof. They blame me for messes that aren't mine, they give me attitude, which leads to me giving attitude... but when that happens, I'm the one with the problem. They don't realize that I respond to how they treat me.
An another note... I am once again sick. And it blows. Only this time I'm not contagious so I can go to work. Thank god! If I couldnt work, I would go nuts. I've found that working keeps me sane. But, I have to deal with having an URI (Upper Respitory Infection for those of you who dont know medical abbreviations) and I still have strep throat, but not contagious, and I also have a bacterial infection in my sinus, and an ear infection. Lol. I seriously have body issues. At least I can laugh at it now... not so funny when I didnt have meds for it all though...
So, last night I went and saw The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants with the two Shannons. It was a good movie. I'm glad I saw it with my Shanni!! I can't believe the girl is moving! And to Michigan! It's so far away! I will definitely have to save my money and go see her though. I don't know what I will do with myself now that she is moving. I guess I took for granted that she was always here.. and now she won't be :o( I'm happy for her though. She's doing what she needs to do, and I admire that she has the courage to just do it. To just pack up and go. I wish I could do that. If I had the courage and the finances to do so, I would pack all my things up and move to New York. Or Oklahoma. I would go to those two places, b/c I could be on my own, living my own life without my immediate family telling me I'm doing everything wrong, but I would still have family around. My dad's family is out in Oklahoma City, and my mom's is in New York.
It's weird. I've lived in Ft Myers my whole life- I was born and raised here. But when I'm in OK or NY, it feels more like home than Florida does. It always has been that way. I guess it may always be that way. I'll never know until I spread my wings and breakaway from all I know... Hopefully one day I will get there....