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[shamrock07]

Hey......Havent been on here in awhile......the last couple days have been badthough. Yesterday I found out that Nicks mom passed away.....I dunno. Ive never had someone close pass away before so.....This is kind of a first time thing for me. I mean last year, Julie Fisher. I didnt really know her at all so. I mean.....I saw Nicks mom alot.....probably more than some of her own kids. And I dunno.....when I found out....it was hard. I called Justin.....to make sure he was alright.....and Nick called me 5 mins later. He said he needed to get out of the house so we went to his moms....Brooke, Jess & Some other people were there. I dunno. I guess its just crazy how fast someone can be here, then be gone. And its scary how people die and life just goes on. I really dont know what to say. I mean Im so sorry and so sad. I mustve cried 10 times in the past 48 hours. It opens up my eyes......like my parents could leave at any time and I would feel horrible. Nick was so good to his mom and he feels horrible, Im not nearly as good as he was....and if it happened to me I dont think i could live. I dunno. Everyone around here is really down about it. Me & Nick talked for like 3 hours last night and......he just opened up to me and....I heard so much stuff, and it just makes me sadder. I just cant believe shes gone.....we'll never see her again. No more movie nights, or chillin at her house. No more partying with her. I dunno. Tomorrow is the viewing and....I dunno. I really dont know what to expect tomorrow....I mean they are all taking it good but......tomorrow will be hard on everyone. I dont know how im gonna take it, and I know if I see one other person cry....that'll be it. I dunno.....I need to sleep. This is all Ive been thinking about and its killing me. So ill talk to ya'll later.

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♥ R.I.P. SHANNON ROSE ♥

You will be missed.