(no subject)

[shampoosuicides]

today was an extremely hard day.
the effects of working as much as i have,
are finally catching up to me.

and it wouldnt be hard if i felt more appreciated.
if i had more help around here.

yes i know you suppported me for a long time;
but you worked part time at the love shop,
and i kept your house pretty fucking clean.

i work over 50 hours a week;
most days starting at 4 in the am.
and i still come home..
and do landry,
and dishes,
and pick up sooo many things...
while you've been watching tv all day.

i havent heard from my dad latly;
he keeps saying he's gonna call and never does
(i'm not allowed to use our phone to call home b/c its to much $$)
i havent heard from anyone latly.

i mean i'm happy i really am.
i love my life here.
i love walking to work and seeing mountains.
and i love the people i'm meeting;
and the life i'm starting.

its just really fucking hard right now.