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[shammel]

dec 15. mike comes back into my life. crawls out of the wood-work. tells me everything i've wanted to hear for so long and of course his timing couldn't be worse. everything i knew already - he loves me, he will never meet anyone like me, he will never connect with anyone like me, and much more. things i didn't know - pot lady had been in the picture a little more than i had thought. but he claims that part of his life is over, he was "hideous", he wants nothing more than to be my friend again, he would never hurt me again, he is a new person with a new life and a new perspective. whatever comes of my decision to repatch our relationship, his goal is now and forever will be to become a better person. i asked what is he going to do with pot lady, who thinks he loves her and thinks she's in love with him, now that he is such a good person. he basically said he didn't know how to be more honest with her. and that i'm the one. it's been a lot to take in but i couldn't be happier to get some closure and to have the opportunity to have him in my life again.

christmas - went very well. the highlight was my uggs, my digital camera, and the chick my mom bought in my name for the Heifer Project.

hope everyone has a merry christmas...ak i'm thinking of you and your florida christmas!

xoxo