--Promises-are-broken-everyday--->
Well, it's valentine's day... who am i to feel sad, right? who am i to feel cheated that the rest of the world celebrates this day of utter couplehood bliss? I am no one after all. the invisible speck of dust that exists only to remind others of the filth in this world. and again i contradict myself.
For the first time in a long time, i feel still. Not empty, not angsty,not silent but still. Like a pen poised atop a paper.
I hate fighting. I hate quarrels. I hate disappointments. TOday, there has been all three. The thing is, it's not really MY problem. It's not MY issue. But the fact that i'm smack in the middle makes it mine own.
Friendships do die. sadly enough, they do... when the communication dies, everything else dies along with it.in my heart of hearts iknow that i care. i hold this friendship tight in my hand, and wish for it never to go away... but it's slowly slipping away... :,(
Why do friends lie to each other? Why do we stab each other repeatedly on the back? Why can't we mean the things we say? Why are we so limited with regards to words and actions? Why do we feel?
This has got to be the worst valentine's day ever...
To erica: I can't tell you what to do. I can't tell you how to fix this. I myself don't know how to fix this. THere are so many things i wish i could say to you... but we don't have the time for that, do we?
To nikki: Communication is the key.
To Aedz: much love HLL.
TO leo: you won't ever get to read this, but thanks for everything...
to someone: kissing *that* person's ass will just make that person worse. you are despicable and all the annoyance inside me is directed towards you. flattery gets you somewhere. i hope it gets you somewhere fast, makes the whole crash thing easier for you dunnit?
To everyone else: I hope you enjoy this hallmark-made day more than the rest of us.
I'm tired... of everything. I need to rest. I need to fly away into that distant place.
I need NEVERLAND more than ever. Johnny, take me away...
For the first time in a long time, i feel still. Not empty, not angsty,not silent but still. Like a pen poised atop a paper.
I hate fighting. I hate quarrels. I hate disappointments. TOday, there has been all three. The thing is, it's not really MY problem. It's not MY issue. But the fact that i'm smack in the middle makes it mine own.
Friendships do die. sadly enough, they do... when the communication dies, everything else dies along with it.in my heart of hearts iknow that i care. i hold this friendship tight in my hand, and wish for it never to go away... but it's slowly slipping away... :,(
Why do friends lie to each other? Why do we stab each other repeatedly on the back? Why can't we mean the things we say? Why are we so limited with regards to words and actions? Why do we feel?
This has got to be the worst valentine's day ever...
To erica: I can't tell you what to do. I can't tell you how to fix this. I myself don't know how to fix this. THere are so many things i wish i could say to you... but we don't have the time for that, do we?
To nikki: Communication is the key.
To Aedz: much love HLL.
TO leo: you won't ever get to read this, but thanks for everything...
to someone: kissing *that* person's ass will just make that person worse. you are despicable and all the annoyance inside me is directed towards you. flattery gets you somewhere. i hope it gets you somewhere fast, makes the whole crash thing easier for you dunnit?
To everyone else: I hope you enjoy this hallmark-made day more than the rest of us.
I'm tired... of everything. I need to rest. I need to fly away into that distant place.
I need NEVERLAND more than ever. Johnny, take me away...