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I am in a weird mood today. Therefore, I update.
I've been thinking a lot today and for some reason I feel as if I am just settling for things rather than reaching my full potential. For instance, my parents have screwed me over for school far too many times....I need to quit bullshitting around and just do it all on my own. I'm going to the financial aid office tomorrow to talk about grants. That should be fun. I'm basically going to tell them they can either approve me for a loan, give me money, or get shot. Okay maybe that wouldn't be the best approach, but regardless I'm going to work my ass off until January so I can start school. I don't want to be that loser kid who never goes to college. I can do better than that. I have the ability to graduate and do all the things I want to do...so what exactly is holding me back?
As of last month I slowly welcomed myself to the world of debt. Yes, its a great place that you should visit sometime. My cell phone is getting ready to get shut off just because I have to work my ass off to have a place to live and put food in my tire of a belly. My checking account is -$50 at United. How is that? I dont even use that account anymore. I love being broke. So, that's just another reason to get my ass in school. I need to start making money.
I almost got fired from my job last week. My lead fucked me over and didn't follow through with a shift trade and then came up with a doctors excuse just to cover her own ass. How ironic. I work two shifts and mysteriously she doesn't let anyone know she can't work a midnight. It's okay. I got a doctors excuse and some drugs to help out. Fuck with me.
On a better note, I found out she is being moved to another house. Karma does tend to be a bitch. I thought everyone knew that. Shouldn't have tried to screw me over I guess.
I saw a thing on Catie's LJ about drunken college kids and it was so true. One thing that pisses me off is the fact that there are a million college kids out there who are wasting away their schooling while I am stuck struggling to get loans just to go when I would actually put effort into my classes rather than just wasting mommy and daddy's money to hit the best frat party that night.
I've been helping people out a lot lately it seems like. I am a sounding board for problems. I guess that's why I want to be a Psychologist. I figure I could get paid to do all the things I do now.
A lot of things lately have made me think about Katie. Almost losing another friend not even a week ago just brought it all back. I refuse to lose anyone else. I just can't. My Dad's brother died on Friday night..I didn't know him very well, but its still upsetting. What's going on? Why are so many people I know passing away? And why is it the people who appreciate life are the ones leaving us? So many questions. There will never be an answer.
I am done here. Just wanted to clear my head a bit. Until next time.
I've been thinking a lot today and for some reason I feel as if I am just settling for things rather than reaching my full potential. For instance, my parents have screwed me over for school far too many times....I need to quit bullshitting around and just do it all on my own. I'm going to the financial aid office tomorrow to talk about grants. That should be fun. I'm basically going to tell them they can either approve me for a loan, give me money, or get shot. Okay maybe that wouldn't be the best approach, but regardless I'm going to work my ass off until January so I can start school. I don't want to be that loser kid who never goes to college. I can do better than that. I have the ability to graduate and do all the things I want to do...so what exactly is holding me back?
As of last month I slowly welcomed myself to the world of debt. Yes, its a great place that you should visit sometime. My cell phone is getting ready to get shut off just because I have to work my ass off to have a place to live and put food in my tire of a belly. My checking account is -$50 at United. How is that? I dont even use that account anymore. I love being broke. So, that's just another reason to get my ass in school. I need to start making money.
I almost got fired from my job last week. My lead fucked me over and didn't follow through with a shift trade and then came up with a doctors excuse just to cover her own ass. How ironic. I work two shifts and mysteriously she doesn't let anyone know she can't work a midnight. It's okay. I got a doctors excuse and some drugs to help out. Fuck with me.
On a better note, I found out she is being moved to another house. Karma does tend to be a bitch. I thought everyone knew that. Shouldn't have tried to screw me over I guess.
I saw a thing on Catie's LJ about drunken college kids and it was so true. One thing that pisses me off is the fact that there are a million college kids out there who are wasting away their schooling while I am stuck struggling to get loans just to go when I would actually put effort into my classes rather than just wasting mommy and daddy's money to hit the best frat party that night.
I've been helping people out a lot lately it seems like. I am a sounding board for problems. I guess that's why I want to be a Psychologist. I figure I could get paid to do all the things I do now.
A lot of things lately have made me think about Katie. Almost losing another friend not even a week ago just brought it all back. I refuse to lose anyone else. I just can't. My Dad's brother died on Friday night..I didn't know him very well, but its still upsetting. What's going on? Why are so many people I know passing away? And why is it the people who appreciate life are the ones leaving us? So many questions. There will never be an answer.
I am done here. Just wanted to clear my head a bit. Until next time.