I Want You Crying When You're Bloody Down In Front Of Me

[shamarkate]

Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again

I guess I should speak up for myself
But I really think its better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right?

Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become

How can you pretend that you don't see
What I hide so carelessly?
You saw me bleed
You heard me breathe And I froze inside myself
And turned away
I must be dreaming

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I cant stop the pain
--MaRsHa