In a fleshly tomb I am buried above the ground
and you don't want to be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasant interruption to the past
and you don't want to look much closer
because you're afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did because of me
The harder I try, the deeper I sink
But love has me blind, I can't even think
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
You see my flaws
And all my scars
I wish you could leave my mind.
Let the memories fade to nothing,
Let me swallow all my fears,
And maybe they'll pass from me.
Washed away in tidal waves
Bled away by tears.
Fallen down a million stairs
But I'm still trying to stand.
This blood is magical to me
The way it runs
Or hides behind soft skin
And covers
Aching bones and tired limbs
Like me it’s tormented by judgments
Failing over and over
Again and again
But when everything
Is done crashing down around me
I know I’m more of a danger to myself
I wouldn’t know what to do with another chance
If you gave it to me
I couldn’t take the embrace of a real romance
It’d race right through me
I’m much better off the way things are
Much much better off, better by far
So I cut my wrists and blacken my eyes so I can fall asleep tonight or die.
And I wanna crawl in with you
But I cry instead
I want your warmth, but it will only make
Me colder when it's over
I can't fix my problems
I've crossed a thin line
You can't just work it out
not with me this time
Always perfect, always the star
Be the best, you’re shit as you are
--MaRsHa