heart breaks and heart aches
i've been feeling lost in myself. i think it is due to stress from the upcoming final exams. i seem to cycle as far as my depression, which can be brought on by stress.
it has been hard for me to be considerate of others and realize that my actions affect other people close to me, especially the person i'm connected to in romantic way like sarah. i feel like i haven't fully healed from my last relationship, and my heart is still numb. i thought that i could heal as i lived into this relationship, but i'm not sure i can. my doubts seem to always come in and out. my ups and downs are negatively affecting sarah, which is similar to juli's complaints of my erratic choices.
i've been studying most of the day. i met earlier with an intentional christian community that me and my friend might live with for next year.
it has been hard for me to be considerate of others and realize that my actions affect other people close to me, especially the person i'm connected to in romantic way like sarah. i feel like i haven't fully healed from my last relationship, and my heart is still numb. i thought that i could heal as i lived into this relationship, but i'm not sure i can. my doubts seem to always come in and out. my ups and downs are negatively affecting sarah, which is similar to juli's complaints of my erratic choices.
i've been studying most of the day. i met earlier with an intentional christian community that me and my friend might live with for next year.