Chaos
Just met a new guy.
Who, weeeeeirdly, seems to be actually into me
And I freak out when he says all these things about the future
But I also freak out at the thought that he might not mean it. or that he would leave.
dont leave.
meanwhilllle....
my brazilian ex for the first time actually remembered my birthday. for the first time you hear, meaning, 5 years after we broke up. how pathetic is that. WELL ITS A BIT LATE TO BE NICE TO ME NOW, DONT YOU THINK???
also, this charlie guy is whining all the freakin time about how much he wants to see me and is suddenly involving me in his facebook stuff and wanting to skype and all that. i haven't seen him in half a year. he's the last guy i had sex with. since then, he has cancelled all our dates, 5 times or so, or just stood me up. and he's still the one having the courage to whine about how sad he is he never gets to see me. JERK. Go have a great time with YOUR HAND TONIGHT
Then. There's this gorgeous guy in the gym who is going to great lengths to help me with my training in the gym. I see second intentions there. But then suddenly there is all this talk about him being gay. and pictures of him with boys on facebook. i dont see the big picture here???!!?
another thing. my ex lucas's best friend. who gave me advice on what to do when lucas was treating me bad. he's been chasing me. we went on 2 dates. but every time he just gets so aggressive and wants to take all my clothes off and do stuff right away and it just freaks me out. he doesnt wait for the mood to come or so. he just jumps me. so i told him i cant do the dating anymore. he apologised and said its not true hes just after sex. i find that hard to believe. so i dont answer.
go away bad men.
welcome good man.
haere mai
Who, weeeeeirdly, seems to be actually into me
And I freak out when he says all these things about the future
But I also freak out at the thought that he might not mean it. or that he would leave.
dont leave.
meanwhilllle....
my brazilian ex for the first time actually remembered my birthday. for the first time you hear, meaning, 5 years after we broke up. how pathetic is that. WELL ITS A BIT LATE TO BE NICE TO ME NOW, DONT YOU THINK???
also, this charlie guy is whining all the freakin time about how much he wants to see me and is suddenly involving me in his facebook stuff and wanting to skype and all that. i haven't seen him in half a year. he's the last guy i had sex with. since then, he has cancelled all our dates, 5 times or so, or just stood me up. and he's still the one having the courage to whine about how sad he is he never gets to see me. JERK. Go have a great time with YOUR HAND TONIGHT
Then. There's this gorgeous guy in the gym who is going to great lengths to help me with my training in the gym. I see second intentions there. But then suddenly there is all this talk about him being gay. and pictures of him with boys on facebook. i dont see the big picture here???!!?
another thing. my ex lucas's best friend. who gave me advice on what to do when lucas was treating me bad. he's been chasing me. we went on 2 dates. but every time he just gets so aggressive and wants to take all my clothes off and do stuff right away and it just freaks me out. he doesnt wait for the mood to come or so. he just jumps me. so i told him i cant do the dating anymore. he apologised and said its not true hes just after sex. i find that hard to believe. so i dont answer.
go away bad men.
welcome good man.
haere mai