The best book
The best book I’ve ever read is Wasted by Marya Hornbacher. Marya tells about her eating disorder, first as bulimia and then as anorexia. This book is very triggering to me and that’s why I haven’t read it in few years. Marya uses extremely effective and beautiful language, she paints dark pictures with her words. She knows what is like to have an eating disorder and even though everyone has different experiences, I think a lot of people with eds find themselves in her words. I have yet to read her other books, but I’ve read a little bit of Madness and it also seems awesome.
QUOTES:
“You begin to forget what it means to live. You forget things. You forget that you used to feel all right. You forget what it means to feel all right because you feel like shit all the time, and you can’t remember what it was like before. People take the feeling of full for granted. They take for granted the feeling of steadiness, of hands that do not shake, heads that do not ache, throats not raw with bile and small rips of fingernails forced to haste to the gag spot. Stomachs that do not begin to wake up in the night, calves and thighs knotting in muscles that are beginning to eat away at themselves.”
“And so I went through the looking glass, stepped into the netherworld, where up is down and food is greed, where convex mirrors cover the walls, where death is honor and flesh is weak. It is ever so easy to go. Harder to find your way back”
“You never come back, not all the way. Always there is an odd distance between you and the people you love and the people you meet, a barrier thin as the glass of a mirror, you never come all the way out of the mirror; you stand, for the rest of your life, with one foot in this world and no one in another, where everything is upside down and backward and sad”
Current Mood:
restless
Current Music: Paramedics
Originally published at Precious Illusion. You can comment here or there.